will i be noticed by u ever? TT

2009-04-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

hi readers . long time no see . been asking to blogged by a few ppl . hahas . thx . mayb u all r the onli few hu r left in my blog ^^ thx .

nth much to blog . ytd went out wit cousin . saw a few of my old life frens . really sians . totally lost the mood in ytd outing . saw my jie also . woots . i hate my old life . lifeless life . forget it .

my life begans anew . it starts here . and shall nvr end . if it ever ends . it shld be my death ^^ for those hu noe my sickness and cared for me . thx . u r much appreciated and shall nvr be forgotten by me =p take real good care cos i believe most haf lost contact wit me .

many matters haf been touched on in my blog . love dreams thoughts care concern . all the things haf been touched nth much left .

led me welcome a new fren in my life . which is xuexue aka joey aka gal gal ! may our frenship last forever =p

well i guess tt's all for now . wait for tmr or sat when i go out den i shall post agains ! stay tune readers . take care ! loves ~

2009-03-18T19:20:00.002+08:00

woah . ytd played basketball at marine parade CC from 2+3 - 4 .
den we booked a 2 hr session of 4 - 6 for badminton .
played basketball a while den i sian . didnt feel lyk playing .
but during badminton . i noe i am fking tired already .
i still continued playing . lyk machiam become mad . i didnt noe y .
tis morning wake up . whole body aching .
i guess is time for me to start excercising . dunno y .
but seems lyk i nvr get sian of badminton . the 1st and last sport i ever start out wit .
guess i shall go book the court again someday and jio them out again !
badminton all the way . till i lose weight . some said i did . compared to last time .
i am really happy cos i noe all my efforts paid out . though is jus tt lil bit .
but i guess tis is my motivation to carry on !
JY RONALD ! HUAT UHS ! take care readers !

2009-03-17T01:33:00.002+08:00

hi long time no see readers .
i wonder if dere r still anymore lols .
anyway back to blog smth i tot of last few days .

Dreams r realistic thoughts tt havent been fulfilled . they r thoughts tt surrounds us everyday and night waiting for it to be realised . its smth tt we all work towards and live wit . without dreams there is nothing call life . dreams r a major part of human . cos its the onli self motivation tt humans haf . the onli thing tt we can forsee . so without dreams . life is meaningless .

separation is the beginning of true love . it is a feeling tt has been tested over time . love is a simple feeling which involves complicated tinking . a simple expression wit no explanation . a sweet taste wit bitterness . a lovely touch wit regrets . a wonderful experience wit a heart breaking sensation .

i have been tinking whether true love exist i hope it does . to all lovers out dere ! last long yeas . feel free to tag ! thx loves !

2009-02-18T13:36:00.001+08:00

Your score on this personality test was 71%

Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural lead, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

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2009-02-18T13:29:00.001+08:00

Test of the element Your Result: Fire You are most likely one of those, that loves to imagine things. Fantasy and imagination, are the basic description for anyone who is of the element fire. You most likely have positive energies, and you are not too logical in some cases. You are very creative, and you are good at solving difficult situations.
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2009-02-18T13:22:00.002+08:00

are you ugly cute or hot? Your Result: Cute your cute dont think your hot or ugly just in between in the meantime sing la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
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2009-02-18T13:17:00.002+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
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2009-02-12T15:28:00.004+08:00

nobody noes wad will happen tmr .
i shld live my life as glorious as it shld be .
i shldnt be bothered hw long or hw short life is .
cos nobody can make anybody's life shorten or lengthen by a min .
everyday is a present from god .
a new beginning of a day also means the ending of a past .
a new sunshine means the old darkness .

i shldnt dwell on the point tt i didnt get u .
but instead rmb the happy times we spent together .
lyk u said u wun forget me . i will always leave my footprints in ur heart .
likewise u left ur footprint in my heart .
the onli diff would be i would forget u .
bury u deep down in my heart .
remembering the times we spent together .
the happiness we once shared .
the sadness we once past thru .
the argument we once had .
the anger we once forgived .
and the hatred we once love .
mayb we really dun suit each other .
or mayb we jus do nt haf the fate to be tgt .
but i really hope u live ur life lyk normal .
although i cant bear to let u go .
but i wun be selfish to stop u from having ur happiness .
i will always rmb the days u held my hand and walked thru the journey of life .
my journey will always haf a part of u .
and my heart will always haf a coffin of memories .
times haf past . it will nvr return . jus look forward . and forget me .
life is a journey tt everyone has to go thru .
love , hate , life , death , sick , old .
nobody can skip any of tis . not jus u . not jus me . but everybody .
so y nt live our life to the fullest . to the most glorious peak which it can reach .
i will not be sad anymore . i will not bother u anymore .
take care my dearest . u will nvr noe hw much i love u .

PS: loving doesnt mean having . loving doesnt mean achieving . loving is happiness . loving is jus to led the person u love to be happy . seeing him/her happy is all u nid . loving is peaceful . is not to hate . is not to bear grudges . is not to be stubborn . is not to be the onli 1 to gif happiness . but letting her having happiness is wad is true love . i finally done it . after so long . i understand it but it cant be done . nw tt i haf done it . i hope more ppl can do it wit me . anything feel free to add me turbozzzzz@hotmail.com or sms me at 98755211 ^^

2009-02-11T00:57:00.002+08:00

from tis veri moment .
tis veri min .
tis veri sec .
DOMO tis word .
DOESNT link to me anymore .
and tis word DOMO .
isnt part of me .
dun haf to ask me y ^^
i am *happy* as it is .
take care . gl . last long .

2009-02-09T23:59:00.001+08:00

love has faded .
life is gone .
time will nvr return .
neither will u .
seems lyk i mia .
seems lyk i am a piece of transparent object .
take care .

2009-01-20T21:28:00.002+08:00

the 1st time u accompanied me and sit . my palm was empty . i noe u r trying ur best to hide the loopholes . in fear i might be sad . yet i asked all the way for a *why* . is the last time i being gentle . and when we got along . wad happened . why did we cry together . i am not willing to let go ... but time cannot return . loving u is worth however its time to stop . without me u mus live ur life properly . i am not willing to let go ... the last time i hugged u . the things we done wrong . since its wrong den led it be wrong . dun worry about me . i dun love u anymore . at least the memories u haf of me was smiling de . when i wake up . the days u held me along and walked thru is really veri happy . dun worry bout me anymore . i'll be goin off .

me n u . boi and gal . all cannot get past love . hu is willing to haf the courage to not be bothered by anything and gif their true love . u said it . but not onli u . and including myself . shld i cont ? shld i rmb it ? and led love take a step closer by the day . i am starting to fall for u . and cos of tis i am afraid to look u into the eyes . got tt lil bit of feeling . and i cant believe i am starting to fall in love . i am starting to fall for u . i am afraid tt i get u already i haf to lose u still . hard to deny . tt humans r afraid to fall in love . although we dun tink dun see dun hear . but we fall in love somehow .

some lyrics i found it meaningful too .

2009-01-19T23:55:00.003+08:00

sighing is a painful breath .
missing is a painful thought .
loving is a painful experience .
hating is a torturing process .
sadness is a happy ending .
sweetness is a happy starting .

hais ~ take care readers . i will be rarely posting ~

2009-01-15T20:51:00.002+08:00

i do cherish u . i really do . i do appreciate u too ...
love is jus a scar . is jus meant to hurt i guess .
i nvr do understand love i guess ?
many say i do . but i doubt i really do .
although i always wish u happiness .
but ur happiness means my sadness my tears .
honestly i dun wish for u to be happy .
cos i believe i am the onli 1 hu can gif u happiness .
time has passed . and i let go . though i regret . but its too late .
u dun haf to say anything else . i understand already .
i dun tink we shld gif up each other so fast .
cos we haf been thru many things to come to tis stage .
and i dun find it worth to jus gif it up lyk tis .
i always hear my fone ring and i get sad when i hear my ringtone .
cos i set a different ringtone for u . and i always waited for ur call onli .
my fone became much silent after i left u .
but its okie cos leaving u is an escape for me .
and to make u realise hw much u miss me and love me .
and to make u noe tt i am ur other half .
u r afraid of happiness tt might disappear in a second or 2 .
but the happiness we both share isnt smth tt is calculated by time .
so definitely it will nvr disappear in a matter of time .
i feel very much empty after i left u but i haf no choice .
the feeling of emptiness is not smth i wish for or hope for .

smth for u peeps to read . a mixture of lyrics . and some of my words . to make it rhyme or make it sound nicer =p thx for reading my blog everyday if u do . u r loved by me .

2009-01-12T23:37:00.001+08:00

I want to run away.
Inside my bright red screams.
I want to break the doors.
Holding back my dreams.

I want to run away.
But there's nothing out there.
I want to shatter windows.
That look out on nowhere.

The past I cannot forget.
But my hearts might be filled with great regrets.

Loving is living.
You have to be giving.
Hiding away won't solve the problem today.
Embrace each chance to give your heart away.

As i gaze into the emptiness that fills the air.
A droplet tends to fall.
While my memory races back to the time.
When i thought i had it all.

During the night a stain is made.
And at the same time all my pain is able to fade.
The only true feeling that i feel, is the wetness.
A drop that is left by a single tear.

Love hurts but take chances.
You will find different romances.
I will open my heart once more.
But my heart will always be sore.

This is not life.
If I'm already dead.
My bleeding heart stopped beating.
And tears i no longer shed.

called the sun and he answered me.
I called the moon and she treasured me.
I called the stars and they cried for me.
When i called your name only silence came back to me.

I called the earth and she befriended me.
I called the sky and she watched over me.
I called the seas and they refreshed me.
When i whispered your name only silence came back to me.

I called the wind and he carried me.
I called the fire and he lit for me.
I called the animals and they sang for me.
When i spoke your name only silence came back to me.

I've seen you pass with my very eyes.
I've seen you smile and my heart just sighs.

2009-01-12T21:58:00.002+08:00

its impossible to understand wad's goin thru a guy's heart . u told me u wanted me and now tt i've given u everything , u tell me u r leaving . u told me it was the first time u felt tis way , and said tt i was special . i believed u ... and it was my happiness . u shld haf told me ur feelings had faded . i had no idea and i continued to depend on u . although i say i hate u now , i'll be missing u . cos i am gal , to whom love is everything ... they say that when u gif a guy all he wans he quickly gets bored . and i noe tt's the truth ... and although i tell myself , i'll nvr be tricked by love again . i fall in love , and my heart is broken again . pls dun break the hearts of girls , who will do anything for love ... i didnt noe tt living tis life while being loved would be so hard . ( today we broke up . u told me to meet someone btr den u , and be happy ... u r jus lyk all the other guys ... wad happened to when u told me tt u loved me ? honestly i dun wan u to be happy . wad am i gonna do if u really forget about me ? i am in so much pain , more pain den i can bare ... cos i am still in love wit u ... )

hahas meaningful lyrics . a gal's mentality i guess . =p happy reading .

2009-01-11T22:37:00.002+08:00

人生就是为了找寻爱的过程，每个人的人生都要找到四个人。第一个是自己，第二个是你最爱的人，第三个是最爱你的人，第四个人是共度一生的人。首先会遇到你最爱的人，然后体会爱的感觉；因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人；当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才会知道什么是你需要的，才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。
但很悲哀，在现实生活中，这三个人通常不是同一个人；你最爱的；往往没有选择你，最爱你的；往往不是你最爱的，而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。
你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你，可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你。
当一个人不爱你要离开你，你要问自己还爱不爱他，如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开；如果还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐，希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止，你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了，而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？
爱不是占有，你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里，但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有，让生命里的永恒回忆，如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子一样爱他的好，爱她的坏：爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点，绝对不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子，万一变不成就不爱他了。
真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，你只知道无论何时何地，心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪着你；真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，也就是没有丝毫要求。毕竟, 感情必须付出，而不是想获得；分开是一种必然的考验，如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输，真爱是不会变成怨恨的。
两人在谈情说爱的时候，最喜欢叫对方发誓，许下承诺我们为什么要对方发誓，就是因为不相信对方，我们根本不相信情人，而这些山海蜇又很不切实际：海枯石烂，地老天荒，都不能改变我对你的爱！明知道海不会枯，石不会烂，天不会荒；就算会，也活不到那时候。
许下诺言的时候千万注意，不要许下可以实现的诺言，最好是诺言做不到的事，反正做不到的，随便说说也不要紧，请记住：“不可能实现的诺言最动人”在爱情里，说的是一套，做的是另一套；讲的人不相信，听的人也不相信。你呢？找到了第几个？茫茫人海中，你遇见的谁？谁又遇见了你？

i lazy translate sorrie ppl . ask others to translate for u if u wan . if not another time can call me i translate bit by bit for u .

i wun blog anymore after tis post till i haf the feeling . i used to blog for onli 1 reason . a 3rd party hu promised u readers to blog every 2 days at least . but now since she is gone . wad's there left . hahas . bye bye .

2009-01-11T00:34:00.004+08:00

hais . y mus we always end up lyk tis . is it fated ?
or is it we haf no future ahead of us .
i tot we could be happy but it seems lyk we r not .
i feel lyk i am always the one to make u sad hais .
i am so sorrie tt i've led u down many times .

time has passed . and its gone . love has to face a decision . u r happy . but ur happiness has made me cry . u r starting to be sad . u try to use other ways to hide ur sadness . but hu really noes . y is it u r so tired . the happiness tt was promised . i noe it . say no more . love has fade . dream's r crushed . happy or not u r no longer bothered by it . the love experience we haf been thru i still rmb . u dun understand the happiness tt was promised . i walked away and i am gone . i haf led go and regretted . my world goes round how to bear wit it .

12/22/2008 5.54pm :
i in taiwan
12/22/2008 5.54pm :
only can use for 10 mins like that
12/22/2008 5.54pm :
so leave you offline msg bahs (:
12/22/2008 5.54pm :
I'm having lotlots of fun .
12/22/2008 5.54pm :
i miss you alot also ):
12/22/2008 5.54pm :
i'll have fun okay ,.
12/22/2008 5.54pm :
loves <3
12/22/2008 9.30pm :
ONLINEEEEEEEEEEEE!
12/22/2008 9.52pm :
i guess yr out .
12/22/2008 9.52pm :
Its okay , i miss you alot alot thoug
12/22/2008 9.52pm :
though*
12/22/2008 9.52pm :
i just wanna hug you tightly and go to sleep .
12/22/2008 9.52pm :
but hais .
12/22/2008 9.52pm :
Its fun here but not as fun without you .
12/22/2008 9.52pm :
Don't worry abt me , i'm taking care of myself Dear (:
12/22/2008 9.53pm :
I gtg already .
12/22/2008 9.53pm :
Don't miss me too much dearest .
12/22/2008 9.53pm :
byebye . nights .
12/22/2008 9.53pm :
Muacks ,
12/22/2008 9.53pm :
<3

liddat veri hard to choose mehs . hais . i feel so fked up !
hais i dun feel lyk bloggin bb .

2009-01-09T23:48:00.003+08:00

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2009-01-09T23:44:00.002+08:00

sorrie . i did it on purpose . i felt hurt too while doin it .
but i guess u nvr noe how impt u r to me ? hahas ...
so jus led it be . i nvr tot i would do tis but yeas ... i did .
hais ... i feeling fking guilty yet u r ignoring me ??? ... hahas .
sure thing . make me feel worse anyway ... i guess i jus not daring enuff ...

2009-01-07T22:19:00.002+08:00

Forget my name, forget my face
Forget my kiss and my warm embrace
Forget my love that once came true
Remember now there's someone new

Forget the love that we once shared
Forget the face that had once cared
Forget the times we spent together
Remember now i'm gone forever

Forget i cried the whole night through
Forget me when they play our song
Forget how close we once were
Remember now u chose him

Forget my teasing, gentle ways
Forget you saw me everyday
Forget i made your dreams come true
Remember now u love him

Memories were being left behind. Forgetting you is
a very hard and difficult thing to do. So for now, you're
not forgotten.

True love hears what is not spoken and understands what is not explained. For love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart.. Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind.

Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, cause love doesn't have to end at all.

When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be head, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits. When you love, you must not accept anything in return. For if you do, you're not loving but investing. If you love, you must prepare to accept pain. For if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using.

2009-01-06T00:54:00.004+08:00

lols .. happy tt u said miss me ytd . but i noe it was jus a joke .
hais . u jus kup the fone . i noe its not ur choice but yeas ~
thx for letting me listen ur voice yeas ~ loves !
but hais . i am jus sad lurhs . i cant slp at all ..
sorrie yeas pig . go slp bahs . hope u haf sweet dreams .
stay happy wit hu ever u tink of steading wit .
i will b here in sadness and darkness but i will care for u still .
turn to me if u haf no one to turn to . i will always b here for u ~
i will nvr gif up on u . at least for now . until u make me do so .
i hope not though . i dun wish to gif up on u jus yet .
i noe we jus haf a future ahead but y dun u wanna walk wit me .
explore wit me the future we haf ahead of us . the happiness .
the sadness . the everything whether good or bad we haf .
i hope i will be the one to wait for u outside schl .
i hope u will be the one to wait for me after army . or ite even .
i hope tt i can pei u sms while u go to schl even .
i hope we can spend our sats or sundays together .
watch movie together . hug each other to slp .
dream together . do everything and everything together .
but wadeva i tink wadeva i did for u . it onli made u feel bad .
i noe i am not the one for u . but y did u treat me so good ?
i tot my care would make u feel btr . but u keep saying u feel guilty .
i didnt noe i will make u feel guilty cos i onli cared for u wit my whole heart .
i am sorrie if i even did something to hurt u . cos it really wasnt on purpose .
i am sorrie if i ever made u sad . cos i myself am sad .
i am sorrie if i ever made u worried . cos i am always worrying for u .
i really hope u r the one to share my sadness and happiness .
if u really wan go wit other guys jus tell me . i will gif u my blessings .
and still will be waiting for u to return . if there's ever a day u wanna return .

something for u all to read .
jealousness is aroused by love . love is aroused by emptiness . emptiness is aroused by loneliness . and lonliness is aroused onli by leavin the 1 u love . love is to trust , forgive and forget . not to bear a grudge or to tink of the bad points . love is something daring . not many dare to try it out . love doesnt wait . love doesnt fade . love onli goes by along wit time . love onli noes the good points and not the bad points . love is able to trust the opposite and not to suspect the opposite . tis is true love . true love will nvr hide facts from the other party for love protects each other from hurt . though the facts might hurt . but love is able to neutralise the hurt done to each other . tis is the power of love . the power of love is actually a feeling . not said by words or done by actions . is jus proven by feeling . if u feel something wrong is happening . wad has to be done is not to suspect . but to trust and ask . accept wadeva ans is given . do wadeva can be done to help each other . and not to suspect , guess and do something wrong to harm each other . sometimes if suspecting the innocent might nvr be undone and it will be too late to say i love u to the other party already . love is smth fragile . the power is veri huge but the slightest words or even the slightest touch can hurt the love and even cause 1 to break down . so dun tink tt love is great so everything can be done . no matter how great a thing is , it still has a weak point .

a fren will always hide ur bad points .
but an enemy will always tell ur bad points .
so do u wish for a fren tt onli says ur good points who is not honest .
or an enemy hu onli say ur bad points who is honest .

sometimes is too late to say sorrie .
sometimes is too late to say i love u .
but its btr to be late den nvr .
however nvr always be too late .
for being late might jus make u regret it for life .

certain things can be found out .
certain things cant .
many things can be seen .
some things nid to be felt .
some thing nid to be said .
some things nid to be left unsaid .
many things cannot be heard .
but explanation nid to be heard .
is the naked eye btr to understand .
or the feeling of ur heart btr .

the heart is a powerful organ . it can hurt u till u cry . yet it can make u fearless of many dangerous things . even a knife stabbing towards ur love , u can jus block it for ur love . but the heart can also hurt u till u feel the sourness and bitterness of everything on earth . is jus comes and go . mayb wit a group of frens u feel lyk having a windy day . ur heart doesnt feel much . but when alone tis wind might jus make ur heart shiver .

BEING ALONE . tis might be the most feared thing on earth . nobody wanna be alone . everybody jus nids freedom but freedom doesnt mean being alone . being alone makes 1 tink of many things . even makes 1 go moody . but being alone makes 1 mind blank . but if blank y do we tink of many things . tis is how u prove tt ur heart is confused . is aint abnormal . however its common . y is such an abnormal feeling common ? cos everybody feels the same . so is being alone gd or bad . it all depends on how u be alone . how u use tis time of being alone wisely . it can be spent on many things . but do we spend it on tinking . many of us jus tinking of wad we r tinking . dun get it ? simply speaking we dunno wad we r tinking . many of us at times go blank for wad reason . for no reason . so if u ask ppl smth , and the reply u get is dunno . jus accept it . for its a real ans . its not hiding a fact or anything . but jus dunno . many at times will tink being alone means emo . actually no . being alone jus means he/she nids some time of their own . is not really a big deal . even if it meant emo . wad can be done . he/she nids some time of their own also is logical . we dun own their time . its their freedom to do wad they wan . ppl always nid a listening ear but forgot to be a listening ear to others . so y not try something u peeps havent done it b4 or for long . try listening to others and putting urself in their shoes . mayb u might understand the feeling of being alone . of even get a btr understanding of y others wanna be alone . if a person really wanna be alone jus led him/her go cos if u try to disturb him/her , they might jus turn nasty or even change totally to someone u feel veri stranger to . its jus normal to be alone . nth much surprising .

tt's all for today . happy reading peeps !

2009-01-04T22:59:00.002+08:00

jus some things for u ppl to read ~ hehes ;x

the feeling of emptiness is the feeling of love . once u lost someone u will feel the feeling of emptiness . tis will onli make u realise how impt tt someone is . and when u realise how impt tis person is , it might be too late . however is btr den to be late den nvr . onli tis feeling of emptiness will ensure the person u love is the one for u . is the feeling of emptiness enuff for u to tahan ? or is the feeling of reasling the one for u is gone enuff b4 u really will treasure the one for u . ~ ( self created LOLS )

if i hurt u accidentally . u dun be too sad . because i did not purposely led u suffer . since we already loved each other for so long . we shld not jus break apart jus liddat . because our love did not come by easily . i really dun wanna gif up ! baby so sorrie . baby dun be sad . i still love u . miss u . dun go away . life without u is really empty . baby together . baby dun gif up . i still care for u . and tink of u . my heart will forever belong to u .

the air here is fresh . the food here is special . the night here dun wanna slp . the scenery here got a feeling . in the far away skies . in a empty room . in the debating of prices in shops . in the middle of the night 3 or 4 am . but darling y arent u by my side . how much time do we haf to waste . spending a day alone is lyk a yr . and the feeling is lyk clouds surrounding me in darkness . but darling ... y arent u ... by my side ~

hearing my fone ring once and it stopped . will it be u ? i always suspect . because at tis point of time my mood isnt stable . the problem between us is i dun trust u . for i fear u will haf a change of heart . because i love u and i am scared to lose u . the feeling of love . is always unstable . and the feeling of love . is always crying in the middle of laughters . baby . jus wanna say sorrie . cos i used the wrong method to love u . because i cared too much . if i dun haf u . my world will be onli left wit memories . and i will face lonliness everyday . because its too late to say i love u again .

^^ done . happy reading peeps .
wit loves from silent !

2009-01-02T22:48:00.002+08:00

lols . i am bored of tis life .
FYI : I GIF UP ON LIFE =p

i starting to hate ppl's name tt start wit B .
and starting to gif up on the word LOVE .
anybody happy for me ? LOLS .
nahs . i really dunno wad's up in my life .
bad new yr start . bad r/s start .

ppl ask me stead wit u .
ppl say i dumb not to stead wit u .
ppl say i stupid not to treasure u .
tis is how much ur reputation is protected by me .
yet u dun wan meet my frens .
yet u dun wan me ?
yet i am not impt to u .
yet everybody seems to be above me .
yet u say i am veri impt .
which is real which is fake i dunno liaos .

tis is a emo post to some . but dun worry .
as i stated i gif up on life so its not emo =p
hahas . jus fk it lurhs . anything happen .
anything crops up . anything tt hurts .
jus forget it . bear it or throw it . so simple .

B invades ur life faster den i can .
how failure can i get .
he even came and console me ! lols !
WTF ?! i also dunno . he has my number ! wow !
u r sad . he ask me console u .
u happy . u forget me =p
he sad u console him . i sad hu console me !

after u read tis . do wad u wan lurhs . i gif up =p
dun bother saying sorrie to me .
dun bother trying to change .
jus go on wit ur life . he unattached u also unattached .
both turning 14 . celebrate ur valentines together .
bday also . new yr also . x mas also . wadeva also can !

jus dun fking come and quarrel wit me . i gif up ! i lose !

2008-12-29T23:06:00.004+08:00

i tink u wan me blog agains bahs pig ! lols !
kk i blog for ur sake ~ actually my sake also ;x

VIETNAM HUAT ! vietnam traffic lyk kuku ~ so retarded can ~ is lyk ! woohoo !~ fked up ;x hahas ! but anyway . the things dere were nice lurhs . the scenery especially ! fking nice ! but the army warfare was fking scary ! lols ;x is lyk every where got traps . i tot i would haf died inside T.T cos i love jumping around and taking short cuts . lucky i go vietnam i bo take shortcut . cos shortcut = trap = death ! lols ! fking nice fking nice . kk enuff of vietnam ~

TIME FOR SINGAPORE LOLS ! nothing much in singapore . i tink singaporeans walk until sians liaos . tinking of place to slack also headache LOLS . but when mix wit new group of frens sure got alot new places . but i tink i rather headache . cos feeling is btr ~ weets ! =p

TIME FOR nth ;x LOLS . wad else can type . hu can teach me !

hmmmss ~ dun say i dun wan u uhs ! i wan u still . and of cos i still love ! hehex ;x dun so emo liaos ~ i also become happier day by day . but u whole day getting more and more sad ~ T.T . heartpain nehs ~ hahas . smile yeahs ! do me tis favour lurhs ;x i bo ask favour from u lors ! jus 1 okie ~ it will be the 1st and nvr the last ! LOLS ;x anyway . dun tink nobody wans u lurhs . u getting very emo nors ! lols ;x *ta yi zhi piss wo off nor !* <<<<---- rmb tis sentence LOLS . k lurhs . smile yeahs ~ i cya tmr ! ^^ hehes . miss ~

bro ! p4l ! we r getting back together ! it was all a misunderstanding nehs ! we tot each other were growing further apart . actually is jus we no communication ! lets get it back woohoo ! p4l HUAT p4l HUAT p4l HUAT ! HUAT HUAT HUAT ! ^^

kk tt's it ppl . i cya guys soon yeahs ! take care ~

2008-12-17T23:00:00.002+08:00

i feel fking unwanted thx .
1st time i feeling life sux .
2nd time i feeling my frens r leaving .
3rd time i feeling nobody loves me .
4th time i feeling i am lonely .
last time i feeling i am dying .

2dae sux can ? fking sux .
heartbroken kena kpkb .
music play kena scolded .
win kena scolded .
lose kena scolded .
i do 10 things 10 things kena scolded .
basically everything i do i kena scolded yeahs ~

dun ask me so many *WHY* questions . is fking irritating thx .
woah . kissing picture ! i saw her n him kiss lols ! dun ask hu ~
if everybody jus willing to shut the fk up a lil bit i will be more happy .
if everyone is willing jus to listen and not talk i will be much more happy .
but no ! fk no ! jus fk off from my life . or led me fk off from ur life .

b4 i say finish things . ppl cut in .
last time ppl say i shoot ppl power .
but now everybody shooting me .
more power den me liaos =p
i hear many words .
peace . no offence . jus jk .
but none ever came through .
not referring to anyone . jus general .
so dun say things u dun mean .

always complain last time i lyk tis lyk tt .
nw i change . complain i nvr do things i do last time .
i try do . u complain lyk i feel so forced . pls stfu !

u say i impt . u say i am not .
u say u heartache . u tink i not ?
u say i hurt u . u tink u nvr hurt me ?
u say u love me . wad makes u tink i dun love u ?
u say he dun love u . but u also dun love me ?
u say ppl u love dun love u . but u nvr tink i love u , u dun love me ?
u keep complaining ppl . u keep saying ppl . nvr say urself ?
u complain i treat u different u nvr treat me different ?
last time nid or no nid me also sms .
now nid den sms . i bo reply my fault .
dun nid sms den i sms u . u attitude me .
pls stfu ! how long mus i tahan tis life pls .

ppl always say some1 made them lose .
ppl always say some1 made them fail .
ppl always say some1 made them kns .
but ppl nvr say .
i made them lost .
i made them fail .
i made them kns .

to all : nw sibei no mood . so dun ask fking silly questions !
to all : jus stfu and u r doin me good .
to all : wan talk dun scold me . or i sure scold u back .
to all : wan talk ask smth more useful thx !

bye to all . and sayonara !

Yo :D

2008-12-10T19:49:00.003+08:00

Ronald has promise XinLe that he will post every 2 days at least ,
to entertain his readers (:
Isn't he a nice person ! :D
Muahahaha , i know his angry cause i change his blogskin but who cares !
At least i have his blogger acct . Hehehehe .
Okay , thats all ronald ask me to write .
Oh this is from me : Hi!
HAHAHA . okay , lame .
Bye ♥

:D

2008-12-10T01:57:00.003+08:00

FOR TH FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ! I AM GNA POST AS HAPPY RONALD! NO MORE SAD/EMO RONALD ANYMR ! YAY!

& I LOVE XINLE ALOT ALOT ALOT ! LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL . I LOVE HER CAUSE SHE ROCKS! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA . I AM HIGH . VERY HIGH . HAHA . I AM HAPPY :D
AND I LOVE ~~PATRICK~~ DOMO! YAY . OK GOODBYE READERS <3!

2008-12-09T00:14:00.004+08:00

hi again readers ~ woohoo ^^ hahas .
a song for u peeps . ( jus the lyrics )
even if i can gif the whole world up .
at least dere is u .
to let me cherish .
and u being here is a miracle of life .
mayb .
i can forget the whole world .
but i am not willing .
to lose information about u .

hope u guys and gals understand tis song lols . quite meaningful but is in chinese ^^

but anyway . back again jus to say good tt someone forgotten me ^^ really so happy ~ at least she has got her own life . dun worry bout leaving me behind . cos i am used to it . hahas . i believe i told u b4 hahas . so dun worry so much . hope u and him last ? hahas . i doubt u will call or sms anymore =p jus tiongxim him bahs . the others arent as impt as him hahas . so jus do wad u believe in doing . and jus follow ur heart throughout ~ hahas .

tis is for my bro ! bro . ur attitude i really cant take it much . many times i feel lyk bursting liaos . sorrie to say all tis but tis is wad i feel . i cant really open up in talking but at least for typing and writing i believe i can =p many times things u told me u also nvr do . lyk u said will t-up me . but u jus told raph my brother more mature in handling things and more sensible . hahas . u told him i dunno how do housework and all ^^ i feel tt u r over concern for me already . its a gd thing to noe i am in ur heart . but however u r over reacting to many things . tt's wad i feel . lyk today when i told u i dun wan my brother learn so much paikia stuff u straight away argued and in the end got angry . i can see de . the way u walk into the lift . but nvm bout all tis . many times i feel lyk bursting but i nvr burst cos i still respect u . i wun burst in front of others unless we r tgt ^^ k complain finish . nw for compliments . thx for trying to help me so much in my business ^^ u r really much appreciated . though my actions might not say it out . but tis is wad i feel in my heart . hope we both attain our goals in VE ^^ and for ur other concerns lyk my relationship and all thx too . but i guess gal we shall not share too much to others . whether u tink she a bit fat or really fat no nid share de ^^ not really fat tt's wad i can tell u . hahas . so if anything jus ask me . dun guess ^^ bro till de end !

woots . for sweetie time =p long time no post bout u uhs . hahas . u so active in my blog jus cos of 1 extra heart u really hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak ! i wan piak piak piak piak piak u ~ ! stupid sweetie ;x whole day hiak hiak me . everytime sms also u hiak hiak wad u doin =.= pig ! nvm . jys in life yeahs ? though i dunno u rl . but i believe we r close enuff =p no matter wad u do i will support u de yeahs ? i cant promise u the deal i will live till 80 cos i noe i might not be able to do it . so i shall kiss the floor as punishment ^^ hope tis will make u smile . hahas . i believe i veri long no make u smile liaos . sorrie neglect u ^^ loves ~

tt's it for today bahs . hahas .
take care and cya readers !

2008-11-30T23:01:00.002+08:00

lols . got new stead jiu forget the rest .
i really *pei fu* tis kinda fren ~ hahas .
after the many things we been thru .
jus 1 word . i got stead cannot so close .
and tt's it . really tt's it . nothing more .
i dunno wad else i can say bout u ^^
which sentence am i to believe ?
the *i gonna prove u wrong tis time*
the * i gonna change for myself not u*
which wan ? or many others hahas .
yes yes i noe u got stead liaos . grats .
tt means i can fk off rite ? okie i get it .

I AM REALLY FKING STRESSED ! Y MUST FRENS . CLOSE FRENS . BROTHERS . SISTERS . EVERYBODY GIF MI STRESS . NOBODY NOES WHERE MY STRESS COMES FROM . NEITHER DO I . MUS EVERYTHING BE SAID SO CLEARLY ? MUS I REALLY SPELL OUT EVERY SINGLE FUCKING THING BEFORE U PPL UNDERSTAND WAD THE FUCK I WAN OR WAD THE FUCK I NID ? TRUSTING PPL GOT SO HARD MEHS ? Y ALWAYS I MISPLACE TRUST DE . U ALL FKING NID MY TRUST I GIF U ALL . DEN TIS IS WAD I GET ? I FKING WANNA CRY BUT AINT GOT THE TEARS TO CRY . U ALL UNDERSTAND HOW FKING PAIN IS TT ? UNDERSTAND HOW FKING HURT I AM ? UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ANOT ? I DUN GET IT AT ALL . DO I SEEM LYK I AM SO FKING EASY TO PLAY WIT . TO BLUFF . TO CHEAT . TO BE PUSHED AROUND ? I FEEL FKING LOST IN TIS WORLD . FEEL LYK THERE ISNT A GOAL I CAN AIM FOR U FKERS NOE ? I HELP WAD PPL . HELP WAD LJ . I DUN WAN HELP LIAOS LARHS . I HELP 10 TIMES 9 TIMES KENA BASTARD . DEN WAD THE FK IS THE POINT OF TIS ? JUS TO SEE U PPL LIVE HAPPILY AND THROW ME ASIDE ? LEAVE ME IN MISERY ? FOR FK I DO ALL TIS . COME ON GUYS / GALS . TIS IS NOT THE WAY LIFE IS . I REALLY FEEL FKING STRESSED U NOE ? IF I CAN JUMP I SURE JUMP . IF I CAN DIE I SURE DIE . U NOE Y I SO DARING ? COS I NOT AFRAID OF DEATH NO MORE . I WAN IT TO COME MY WAY FASTER ! U PPL ALWAYS CLAIM U CAN HELP U CAN HELP . BUT CAN U ANOT ? I DUN SEE U CAN DO IT LORS . I NVR SEEN ANY1 HU SAID I WILL HELP U REALLY HELP ME . ONLI NOE HOW SAY *ONLI U CAN HELP URSELF* I NOE TT FOR FUCK SAKE . IF TIS IS UR SO CALLED *HELP* DEN FK OFF FROM ME ! I DUN NID AND DUN DESERVE TIS KINDA HELP ! IF EVERYTIME I SAY SOMETHING TT TOUCHES U DEN U CLOSE WIT ME DEN FK OFF ! FK OFF ! I DUN NID TIS KINDA CLOSENESS . NO POINT ! NO FKING POINT ! U TINK ALL TIS LOVE LOVE LOVE GOT USE ? I TELL U . EVERYBODY NOE HOW TO SAY DE . IS JUS FUCKING 4 LETTERS . L . O . V . E . I ALSO NOE HW SAY ! BUT SAY LIAOS DUN DO DEN SAY FOR WAD . DUN SAY BETTER . CB . U ALL NOE HOW FKING TIRING TIS IS ? HELP LIAOS DEN GONE . GONE LIAOS I SAY A FEW WORDS . COME BACK DEN ASK FOR HELP . HELP DEN GONE AGAINS . KEEP LIDDAT . I DOG MEHS ? I TINK I AM LARHS . ALWAYS SAY *SORRIE FOR TREATING U LYK A DOG WHEN U R NOT , ITS MY FAULT I'M SORRIE* BUT AFTER U COME BACK ? STILL TREAT ME LYK DOG . YES YES DEN U WILL SAY I WILL CHANGE ! BUT U FKING NVR CHANGED ! U ALWAYS SAY I DUN LED U UNDERSTAND ME . I NVR GIF CHANCE FOR U TO UNDERSTAND ME . BUT HAF U ALL EVER TRIED TO UNDERSTAND ME . I NOE ITS DIFFICULT . I NOE ITS HARD . COS I AM COMPLICATED . BUT HAF U ALL EVER KNOWN I HAD A SIMPLE SIDE ? NO . Y NOT ? COS U NVR BOTHER TO FIND OUT MY SIMPLE SIDE . BUT KEEP PONDERING OVER HOW TO UNDERSTAND MY COMPLICATED SIDE ! GET IT GET IT ? I REALLY FKING SICK AND TIRED OF TIS LIAOS . IF U NOE ME ADD ME IN MSN . OR IN BLOG . ONCE U SEE URSELF BOTH OUT OF BLOG AND OUT OF MY MSN TT'S IT . I REALLY WUN GIF ANYMORE CHANCE LIAOS . U ALL CAN ASK ME FOR LAST LAST LAST LAST LAST CHANCE . A THOUSAND AND ONE CHANCES I GIF THE SAME RESULT WILL STILL HAPPEN DEN FOR FK I BOTHER TO GIF U ANOTHER CHANCE ? TT'S IT ! I FKING DULAN . I FKING FKING DULAN !

2008-11-29T01:27:00.004+08:00

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you lovable - even if you don't love them!

You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you

You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil

How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Intuition

You are:

You are a true wordsmith and a master of words.
You are original, spontaneous, and a true inspiration.
Highly energetic, you are up for any challenge.
You are entertaining and engaging... both to friends and strangers

What's Your Personality Type?

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver

You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and you usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.
Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.
You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.

In love, you are very protective and supporting.
However, you do need to "feel special" - and it's quite easy for you to get jealous.

At work, you are a natural leader. You can help people discover their greatest potential.
You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

How you see yourself: Trusting, idealistic, and expressive

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Bossy, inappropriate, and loud

What Do People Envy About You?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent.
You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored.
You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts.
And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

How Do You Live Your Life?

How You Life Your Life

You tend to deprive yourself of things you crave... for your own good.
You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently.
Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot!
You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Happy Are You?

You Are 84% Happy

It's unlikely that you know anyone happier than you.
You know how to be happy, no matter what
life throws at you.

How Stressed Are You?

Your Stress Level is: 55%

You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard.
When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems.
But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down.

How Powerful Are You?

Your Power Level is: 63%

You're a very powerful person, and you know that all of your power comes from within.
Keep on doing what you're doing, and you'll reach your goals.

tell me if u haf any opinions !

2008-11-28T01:13:00.006+08:00

hmms . kena forced to blog . but nvm . wanted to blog anyway =p
same thing . NO NAMES mentioned =p hahas .
take any sentence u tink suits u ;x

~ hw i wish to walk into ur heart and open the window of ur heart ~
~ u dunno hw impt to u . even if i died u will nvr understand ~
~ u dun haf to noe wad i am tinking . but jus trust me ~
~ trusting and believing makes a big diff ~
~ all love doesnt have to haf a happy ending . cos love doesnt end ~
~ if u throw ur thrash in me . i will be the luckiest dustbin ~
~ if u can make me sad . u r the 1 for me in my life ~
~ love onli rejoices in truth and not lies ~
~ loving makes 1 go blind . yet blindness doesnt makes 1 go loving ~
~ love is felt by the heart and not heard by words or done by actions ~
~ love doesnt not need to be repaid ~
~ love is onli a feeling not a power . so dun say the power of love is great ~
~ hatred makes 1 go wild . but without hatred . there isnt a learning point ~
~ open up to some1 and u realised he/she is urs ~
~ smiling doesnt mean happiness and sadness doesnt mean misery ~
~ advices r not meant to be listened but to be act on ~
~ tears r not meant to be dropped but flow ~
~ a min of happiness a day means onli 23hrs59mins of sadness ~
~ u stole my heart jus by looking at me ~
~ my heart follows u not everywhere . but every sec ~
~ nth leads us to anywhere . is where we lead ourself too ~
~ nothing can speak for our heart . for heart is smth to be felt ~
~ speaking from the bottom of the heart is still empty talk ~
~ loving without actions doesnt mean puppy love ~
~ a min of happiness can mean more den 1 yr of sadness ~
~ to smile can be acted . but to cry hardly can be acted ~
~ a kiss from u and i became urs ~
~ jus a lil action and words from u i went wobbly ~
~ nothing means more den jus a pat from u ~

i really running out of ideas=.= zz . but nvm for 2dae i post liddat .

here comes the no name section RAWRS !

~ i noe u r not feeling happy cos u tink ur attitude problem is coming back . however u dun haf to worry . although *** is not around p4L still survives . our spirit nvr dies ! no matter wad i support u !

~ u do noe u <3 ******** alot . so y u bother to hide . u can jus follow ur heart de . i noe ur blog say u dunno hw to start following ur heart . cos u haf been following ur brain ur mind . which means ur tinking for yrs . is hard to change i noe . since u gonna gif up on him . y nt nw . at least got some1 to help u . tt some1 might not be here all the time for u . tt some1 might be gone again lyk the last time when he said he was goin away . but dun worry . if u wan . u can sms instead of calling . msn instead of calling . while talking to ******** u can msn me . is easier for u . makes u more happy . y not . but hwever if ur parents come in den gg . u can say u talking to me . u kup my call . msn faster type say call u . i will try my best to help u de . but of cos i wun be here forever . sooner or later i might be gone ^^ lyk the last time . u nvr noe . i nvr noe . nobody will noe . hahas . i noe u read tis lurhs might heartpain might sad . but dun nid . is not worth . do smth more worthwhile of ur time . ur tears . ur love . jus do wad u lyk . do wad u supposed to do . ur frens around might be impt ur gans might be impt . but nobody is more impt den ur parents and future husband bahs . i guess u wan spend ur life wit him de . but things turn out to the state where u nvr expected it to be . so dun feel sorrie for urself . feel sorrie for the ppl hu do not noe hw to treasure u . sorrie if i made u heartache again . dun cry bahs .

~ myself ;x LOLS . dunno wad to post lurhs . but nvm . i shall try tink . i really dunno wad i wan in life yet . i noe my job is attractive . its an opportunity . but i dunno y i wanna slack . i cant tahan the stress . i haf ever tahan a few stress at one go . but tis yr . tis month . tis day . the stress is all piling up till i cannot take it anymore . i dunno hw to go about taking tis stress . jus swallow it ? or jus throw it away ? some1 teach me hw pls . i cant stop goin out anymore . cos i really wan take a breath . i nid a long long break . but dun worry . towards my jan pay chk i will not gif chance de . i wan earn wad i supposed to earn . at least the MINIMUM ! i nid the $ to support myself T.T i might look happy everyday . but i really am sad ! i jus dun wan show it to other ppl . to anybody . cos i dun wan share sadness but happiness . i can make everyone happy . yes i can do it . everyone noes . but y isit so hard to laugh . i laugh at the wrong point of time . when i supposed to i didnt . not supposed to i do laugh . hais . wad's the point of my life . i aint got any str . i aint got any pillar to lean on . i got nth else to make me go on . i haf totally broke down already . i used to shout at my father lyk no kick . everyday thing . yet when i shouted at him ytd i cried . he tot is cos i cried of the things he said . but he didnt noe the real reason . i myself dunno the fking reason ! hais . ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ can some1 teach me T.T can some1 help me T.T i really cannot take it anymore . tis is jus for u all to read . dun nid comments for tis part thx .

loyal readers ~ u r much appreciated . i noe my blog is not posting much . i neglecting my blog and readers . for tt i apologise . hope u guys take care yeas ~

2008-11-09T23:21:00.004+08:00

NO names will be mentioned tis post ^^
so if u find tt i am talking bout u . accept it or reject it ^^

firstly ~ since i haf helped u . hope u mayb get back wit him ? hahas . but i doubt u will . so no matter wad . u r on ur own now . i wun be wit u liaos . cos i was nvr meant to a part of anybody =p and as for u . jus do wad a fren is supposed to do bahs . not much advice will be given to u . cos i find u dun really use it . yes u do appreciate . yes u do listen . yes u do find it useful . but all tis is useless if dere is no action . i see empty words onli . so take care .

secondly ~ of cos someway or another . some ppl or not will treat me as a part of them . but hw much i am a part of u . is jus a part . nobody is indispensable to nobody . so whether we r bros or not . dun haf to be said . cos all tis is proven thru actions not words . i believe our actions r already dere . and nothing much is left to be said bahs =p so whether we r together or not . i can safely say u 2 r in my heart already . of cos wit other ppl . but u 2 r impt as it is already =p hahas . so gambate ! we can do tis together !

thirdly ~ i noe u busy working . to earn ur xtra pocket money . to buy a-cash and all . but hahas . really dun overwork . afterall u deserve btr love and care den tis . but of cos dun worry . i am not saying bout myself . cos i believe he can do it btr den me . cos if u love him . even hw little he cares for u . u still tink its the best care u can ever get ^^ everybody hu haf been thru tis part of life called relationship would understand tis phrase . but as for those hu havent . dun worry . u will find ur true love 1 day .

lastly ~ tis is bout myself ^^ top 3 is for u all to guess . i was jus wondering . wad kinda gal am i gonna be wit nxt time ? a career woman ? a housewife ? a slut ? a bitch ? i dunno and dun care . cos my life is in my hands . so i choose . all our future is within our reach . we shouldnt let everything take its course . actions r louder den words . but wad kinda actions is louder . i find its the same . its jus which situation . if u say action is louder den words . led me ask u guys tis simple qns . would u rather be heartbroken or severely injured . i believe tis qns not many ppl will ans . or can ans . hahas . and another trick qns . do u tink money is the root of all evil ? if it is . y u nid evil to survive . does tis mean nobody is gd ? if money is needed everywhere . y is it evil . and y is everyone working so hard for evil ?
another psychology qns . would u live in a cave , on the mountains or near the oceans ?
hahas . i really am bored . so much inspiration jus come . sorrie readers if i ever bored u out . can i really adapt to my new life ? or am i still addicted to my childhood life .
can anybody ask me a few qns so tt i cant answer ? i really feel lyk experiencing qns tt i cant ans . i wan try many new things . but i noe not much time is left . especially for a heavy smoker lyk me . but anyway . dun talk bout sad things .
i got smth tt can be gd yet bad . which is my wish . i wish to help 100 ppl b4 i die . so even if i die at any moment after i helped 100 ppl . i dun mind . cos i willingly made tis pact ^^ not to anyone . but to the skies . hahas . sounds so lame rite ? but if god or buddha . or anyone is willing to led me help 100 ppl . i promise my life aint worth so much . cos i noe my life was exchanged wit a 100 ppl's life . so no matter wad . i earned already hahas .

there's a song . veri nice . but i dun understand y ppl dunno how appreciate it . its a chinese song . Gal/Guy : the day after tmr , we will understand . ppl out of love will become more mature . Gal : my feeling for u is more den jus love . Guy : because u gaf me courage and (Gal) unlimited luck . Guy : actually i also wanna love u properly . Gal : i scared i might hurt u in the end by accident (Guy) i am not afraid of being hurt . Guy/Gal : sorrie . no matter how close we r , we still cant be together . Guy : in the end i see u being embraced by another guy . Gal : there would be 1 day i would find my 1 and only (Guy) i scared i wun be ur 1 and only . Guy/Gal : and i smiled and wish u happiness .

it might sound funny . but the meaning is dere . and its in chinese . so harder to understand when translated . hahas . but nvm . hope u guys get the meaning . mayb i will blog another time . cos i really dun feel lyk blogging liaos .
really tired . both mentally and physically . hais .
nites reader . sweet dreams !

2008-10-27T13:05:00.003+08:00

hi i'm back once again . hahas . cos i finally saw thru smth .
i tink god sister sux =p yeahs in fact most . not all .
i tink all tis r jus a virtual relation . which can be broken .
broken not jus within a snap . but wit a torturing way .
am i really tt dumb to get betrayed twice ?
or is it something in me tt makes me so hated ?
tt's y so many ppl love to betray me ? hahas . forget it .
nvm . i dun feel lyk talking bout tis god sister thing .

k leds skip until ~~~~~~ where ? dunno =.=

k leds start of wit . my job . i really appreciate mr yl and chris and ash .
and everyone else hu r trying to help me . but i am trying my best too .
i hope i wun led u guys down . somehow ~ by hook or by crook .
i will really try my best . i guess tis month is nt my month .
i hope for a btr month nxt month . hope i show some results .
i guess is jus the timing wrong . or mayb i am wrong =p

kk . leds drop tis topic . and cont wit ~~~

counselling !!! nahs . so many ppl i counsel . half of them betrayed me .
hahas . wtf i counsel for =.= am i dumb or wad .
but tis is my passion . i hope the nxt few i start counselling appreciate it .
and hopefully not betray tt trust i haf . or even tt advice i gaf .
if u dun accept the advice i dun mind . but dun ever take it for granted !
many things r sensitive . to some is $$ . to some is love .
to me . is simplicity and complications . counselling , trust and belief .
dun understand nvm . its for me to noe and u to find out ;)

kk i shall end my post here . i dun feel lyk posting much .

2008-10-16T00:43:00.006+08:00

being treated lyk a dog doesnt matter to me .
cos dog r humans best fren . so mayb u treat me lyk dog .
hu noes i might jus be ur best fren =p

smile or sob through ur day . is ur choice .
u all do noe i dun mind being treated anything =p
so y say sorrie if u treat me smth u tink i might not lyk .
cos i dun haf much likes or dislikes . ^^

so much left to say when 1 is gone ?
y nt say it all out when 1 is still here ?
i am not a person hu hide my feelings .
1 min ask whether i will be dere .
1 min FUCK U . hahas =p

seriously 1 qns . wad do u take me as ?
nth ? or u dun even noe i existed .
hahas . wad else can i do other den laugh the day away .
led me ask all u guys and gals out dere .
is love a hatred .
OR ~
is hatred a love .

does scolding means loving ? lols !
dun lyk to do things behind ppl's back .
so simple den dun do ! i also dun lyk .

Simplicity is ME !
Complications is my mind !

simple things and complicated things .
which will u choose ?

A - Z . everything stand for smth .

if ur life has onli another 3 days more to go .
wad is the 1st 3 things u wanna do for each day .

if loving is so hard . y love .
if letting go is so hard . grab it .
if forgetting is so hard . bury ur memory .
if hating is so hard . forgive and forget .

wad is the point of clinging on to smth tt is nt urs .
let it go . mayb it will be back someday if its meant to be urs .

readers always reading my blog .
dun wanna state ur name its okie .
but pls reveal whether u noe me or not .

y make smth so simple to complicated .
y make smth so complicated to simple .

everything links ~ i not old enuff but doesnt matter .
i believe i haf enuff experience to say all tis !

loving hating forgetting memories . does it matter ?

knowing urself is the ultimate challenge of a game .
knowing some1 is nth much .
but do u haf wad it takes to noe urself ?

am i to gif up counselling . or am i to continue ?
counselling helps ? or does not help ? i really wonder .

a min u r dere . a min u arent .
tis sec u ask me to be dere for u .
nxt sec u turned ur back on me .

is it so hard to walk into ur heart ?
or isit so hard to find an opening in ur heart .

advices given wun be taken back .
but u gaf them back wit an attitude .

tis min u said fuck u !
nxt min u said bye loves .

lols which am i to believe .
things i hear may not seem true .
things i see may not be true .
things i feel might not be real .

so wad is the truth and a lie .
it all depends on hw u look at it .

do feelings always fade ? or is jus wad we say .
do feelings always feel ? or is jus wad we wan .

anything ask me ! anything find me !
but if u dun nid me jus throw me aside =p

tt's my life ? wonderful ~ :)
is tis wad i wan ?
or is tis wad i deserve ?

lolols . tell me . tis aint a emo post .
anything feel free to ask me . i will ans ^^

2008-10-08T23:26:00.003+08:00

i tink i not gonna gif any advice anymore .
i believe my advice r bullshit .
nothing comes true .
everything turns out wrong .
wad else is there left for me to not let go in tis world .
i believe i wun gif any other advice .
i feel lyk i ruining ppl's life .
i intended to gif a surprise but it became a shock .
there is no such thing in the world called patching !
P.A.T.C.H = parting apart to coming happiness .
T.R.U.S.T = to revenge ur stupid trust .
i will nvr trust ppl so easily agains .
i have done the dumbest thing before .
i have done the smartest thing before .
but nvr haf i felt lyk tis .
the feeling of being betrayed sux !!
u call me ah beng for all i care .
its my life now .
dun care whether i smoke .
i wun care whether u cried either .
cos in my life nw .
there is nth called trust .
to love is to hate .
to hate is to love .
wad i do may nt be the best choice .
but i definitely noe wad i do is wad i tink is right .
my intentions all turned out wrong .
the feeling of bitterness sux !
the feeling of sourness sux !
hate me for all i care . i wun love anyone anymore .
i dun deserved to be loved . neither do i deserve to love .
a ugly piece of shit wit so much crap in his mouth .
hu the FUCK wans ?
tell me lors ! got ans gif it to me lurhs !
i dun wan wait anymore .
i dun wan do anything anymore .
i dun wan to go back on the right track .
no more wad lj personality test .
is all bullshit ! wtf is tis rubbish .
i noe all ur personality .
why the fk i do so much rubbish to prove hw gd i am .
is jus proving hw stupid and childish i am .
i also jus proving hw action i am .
i noe all ur personality . yes yes ! BULLSHIT !
FUCK my LIFE !
tis is not life .
tis is not me .
tis is not u .
tis is not us .
tis is not bout anything .
is bout revenge .
jus when i tot some1 would make me change .
jus when i tot some1 would help me out .
jus when i tot life was full of hopes .
NO ! NO ! NO ! BULLSHIT ! FUCKING BULLSHIT !
jus when i tot i knew u ppl well .
NO ! for goodness sake . NO !
i dunno anyone .
i dunno anything .
i dunno wad personality test .
i dunno wad fortune telling !
I AM JUS PLAIN LUCKY .
i guessed everything de !
ppl say i can solve alot of problems .
NO ! FOR CHRIST SAKE NO !
wad the FUCK can i solve .
NOTHING . N.O.T.H.I.N.G !
u noe wad is love ?
L.O.V.E = Loving Other Virgin Elephants .
wad tis means ? so simple .
we all go for virgins !
V.I.R.G.I.N.S = Veri Intellectual Retarded Girls In New Singapore .
wad i mean new singapore ?
it means tis is hw singapore is nw ! the people around here is the same .
wad the fk u mean by i am unique . no i am jus wierd .
dun make me sound so refine .
jus use the crude word . go ahead !
dun gif mi anymore BULLSHIT cos i wun gif anyone BULLSHIT anymore .
LEAVE ME ALONE

2008-09-29T21:29:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2008-09-16T01:08:00.002+08:00

suddenly felt an urge to blog .
dunno wad's the reason but jus wanna blog . lols
heard alot of songs the past few days .
many wonderful sentence .
cant rmb all but i try my best !!
some i add de ;x hahas . inspiration ^^
~ i wanna bring u round the world and wander the wonderful places on earth
~ earth is not as boring as it seems .
~ look at the wonderful points instead of the lousy points .
~ if u turn the lousy points into wonderful points u r perfect .
~ many at times u would tink u r lousy but u aint .
~ thru ur life , it may seem long but rmb it onli ends in a min or even secs .
~ tinking back might make things become a joke .
~ looking forward might make things become scary .
~ i wanna open a window in the wall tt's blocking me from goin into ur heart .
~ i wanna break thru the rejections u gaf me .
~ everyday i wake up i tink of u , and the 1st 3 words tt came to my mind is i love u .
~ the min u r out of my sight u r in my mind .
~ time seems to fly , and birds seem to soar . nevertheless , humans r upgrading .
~ u might tink u can fly , but haf u ever tot tt flying might cause ur death ?
~ things tt r senseless has the humour , however things tt make sense hurts the most .
~ if a lie can cheer someone up , and the truth can kill someones heart , which will u choose ?
~ u stole my heart every sec u look at me .
~ does the truth matter tt much if u tink i am lying ?
~ does love really matters if u dun care bout me ?
~ if giving u up makes me sad , y do i gif u up ?
~ loving makes 1 go blind and hating makes 1 go killing .
~ time passes every moment but the time i haf for u is unlimited .
~ the moment u pass by me , u caught my eyes .
~ if i can be the dustbin tt u pour ur troubles in , i will be the luckiest dustbin .
~ open up to me and u will understand i wanna express my love for u very much .
~ running from a problem might not be avoiding , however its making it less awkward .
~ tinking twice might not help , but acting twice might help .
~ making a mistake might not be the way out , but correcting the mistake is the way out .
~ allowing 1 to enter ur heart is not as hard as it seems .
~ to understand a person , u haf to be tt person .
~ to see the future , u do not need foresight , but courage .
~ to love or to be loved is nt much a diff , it tells a person charactersitic .
~ unlimited courage and love can take 1 to greater heights .
~ to be or not to be , its up to u .
~ to forgive is smth wad a person wit a small heart cant do .
~ to hate is smth every1 can , but to hate it well , is smth a succesful person can do .
~ to control 1 , u haf to be controlled .
~ to haf followers , u mus be a follower .
~ to be a leader , u haf to be led .
~ lastly , love , courage , hate , control , follow , lead , understanding , forgiving , which will u choose ? it all tells wad kinda person u r .

tell me which sentence u lyk the best =p gif mi a tag or msn me .
turbozzzzzz@hotmail.com <<>
take care readers !

2008-08-26T22:12:00.003+08:00

3 parts Playfulness
2 parts Vigor
1 part Grace

Splash of Poise

Finish off with a squeeze of lime juice

What Ronald Means

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

gif mi a lil tag too =p tell me if its true ;x

2008-08-26T18:43:00.007+08:00

Ronald is a very emotional person with a broad range of emotions from the highest highs to the lowest lows. He feels emotional situations very strongly. He'll flash to the very peaks of elation, sweeping everything before him. Then, for some reason unknown to himself, he will burn out emotionally. These mood swings can be very disturbing to him. Sometimes, he feels that he can no longer produce anything. But, after given some time alone to "recharge his emotional batteries", he will spring back into action.

Because Ronald feels situations intensely, he relates easily to others' problems. If he is not careful, when he comes into contact with someone who is in a depressed frame of mind, he will also suffer the same emotions and change moods. Ronald reacts impulsively, without much thought before hand. He may plan everything in detail before he even begins, then do it completely different when the time comes to carry it through.

Ronald has a strong need for affection. He thrives on touching and being touched. Ronald desires being told that he is loved, every day. He enjoys being the center of attention. He loves attention, sometimes he even retells stories that got him attention earlier.

Ronald has the possibility of being a actor or natural born salesperson, simply because he relates so well to other people. He likes expressing how he feels, what he is doing, and what he plans to do. He is a people person.

He will work most efficiently in a people orientated job as opposed to a job working alone on an assembly line (that would drive him insane.)

Ronald tends to write a bit smaller than the average person. When a person's letters are small and tiny, this indicates an ability to focus and concentrate. This character trait is a huge asset in careers like math, science, race car driving, and flying planes. However, if Ronald writes tiny all of the time, he will also display characteristics of someone who is socially introverted. Ronald will often sit on the sideline and watch others get the attention at parties. he might be willing to open up and be warm, but only in small groups or a select group of people. When he is busy working on a project, it is common for all other noises and distractions to just fade away and his ability to focus is incredible. When he says "he didn't hear you", he really means, he didn't hear you.

Ronald will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Ronald believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.

Regarding honesty, he is basically honest with a tendency to lie in certain circumstances. This results from a combination of secretiveness (the desire to keep things private) and self deceit (the desire to not accept something in his life at the moment). He deliberately strays from or evades the truth. He feels the truth is not what he wants people to know. This is not always bad. Have you ever known a good secretary that could not say "the Boss isn't in", when the Boss is standing next to the phone? When Ronald is in a position that he can't find a truthful way out, he might prevaricate.

Ronald can be defiant. He sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way he is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which he thinks are infringing upon his freedom of action.

In reference to Ronald's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Ronald slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Ronald can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Ronald is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Ronald basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.

Ronald is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Ronald has a need to be in control of his own life. He is a strong individual that can control situations to his advantage. This person can take control of a situation. He likes control and has the ability to control people without getting them offended.

Ronald is very selective when choosing his inner circle of friends. He excludes all but a few from his fellowship. He limits his intimate friends to one or maybe two people. He tends not to trust the masses of people but chooses only a few to trust.

Ronald exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although he may not intend to deceive or mislead, he blows things way out of proportion because that is the way he views them. He will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of his material world. Ronald allows many people into his life because he is accepting and trusting. He is sometimes called gullible by his friends. That only really means that he trusts too many people. Ronald has a vivid imagination.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Ronald has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Ronald fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Ronald has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Ronald seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Ronald seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

leave me some opinions ? :)
by tagging or smsing thx ~

2008-08-24T00:55:00.003+08:00

lols . u r still as concern as ever ? and as anxious as ever .
dun worry my BEST FREN SEEKEE .
i wun doubt u no more =p jus live ur life as normal .
tmr is ur 2nd month anni ! Grats =p
and as for the fake seekee . mayb u r nothing btr to do .
or eat too full . or jus too bored . fk off ^^

2008-08-22T18:46:00.003+08:00

MY FKING MOOD IS DROPPING _|_
u all shld noe y . see my tag board . LOLS .
may i noe hu is tis ?
really u ? wad u mean by yeaps .
i dun understand . at least a reason or smth ?
lols . i am totally blanked .
tell me its not u . or explain clearly !

2008-08-19T20:43:00.002+08:00

my latest leg injury ! RAWRS . ;x

long time no post ! rawrs . its time to post too ;x lols . how's everyone ? hope u guys r fine . jus feeling bored . ytd met nida rofls ! dumb gal ;x whole day bully me ;x keep taking phone . rawrs ! i swear nxt time sure tickle u de . lalas ;x

ash bro : u already mia a week or so ;o its time to come back soon . hahas .

milo bro : u also mia a week or so . i noe u chionging ur rank ! hope u success ! i noe u can do it . i got all the faith in u ! jy ! gambate !

seekee : i noe u r busy . lols . so dun nid find free time to come study wit me . doubt u will haf free time too . so jus take care of urself . hope u pass ur N lvls . since our prelims not so well .

to all those outside . take care yeas ? ;x

2008-08-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

havent been posting for quite a while yeas ? lols .
2dae post also nth much . hahas .
nvr really talked to seekee much . lyk bout a month ++ ?
xueting is upset over her boy so not talking much to boys (including me)
szeman is missing hahas .
dawn nothing to mention rofls !

ash bro : i hope u change for the better and understand where u r standing right now . u r kinda mixed up with the roles tt u r playing . i hope u get well real fast ! hope to see the old ash back .

milo bro : hoping u will succeed in ur job . will be joining u real soon . hope u become MM by den ? gl ! u r right . gals will fly to u when u got the money , car , houses . by tt's not me . u noe it . and u aint a rotten apple . i noe u r liddat due to stress . dun worry . i , ur bro ash will support u !

to all other frens whom i havent been contacting . or lost contact . sorrie yeas ?
ppl do move on and make new frens . i believe u all haf too . or else u wouldnt be not contacting me . hahas . take care yeas ?

lastly u all r loved by me . i really wish u all the best of luck .

2008-07-30T21:50:00.002+08:00

2dae comp a lil btr . lols . so decided to post .
its quite funny though . nth much to post anyways .
jus listening to some songs and msn a while everyday .
decided play dota at 10 ! cos really veri long nvr play .
sure deprove lyk siao . so good luck for me later .
seekee phone spoil o.o she could read but cant reply . sad
my phone spoiled today too . lols . sadded .
so using spare phone . the music dam loud .
jus nw smoke *seesha* or smth liddat . budget 1 though .
ownself make de . so high . started *flying* lols .
so leds forget it . change topic bahs .
shannel/xueting these few days chatting lesser to me . lols .
jillene rarely sms .
szeman/sweetie also dun on her phone during weekdays now .
seekee . as mentioned above . dun nid repeat .
basically veri lil ppl to sms nwadays .
hahas . i wanna start work soon ! hope N lvls finish faster .
doubt she rmb-ed to study wit me ? busy wit her new stead . (i guess)
so i am here wishing u good luck for ur exams !
if u ever read it . den good lols . or else the luck will nvr go dere ?
oh yeas . forget to say . good luck to all those out dere .
no matter in wad . love . job . frens . relationship .
whatever u can tink of . i sincerely wish u good luck ^^
ohss last but not least . today talked to deadwawa . last time fren .
lols . so cute she . forget me . den when rmb . so ps .
its okie ! u r forgiven by tis lonely boy ! hahas .
today played basketball wit p4l and a few others .
so fun . save money . lose weight . and train fit !
p4l huat ! we can do it de . u r loved by me . (if dun wan can reject) ;x
hahas . kk . i shall end here . take care all .

treasure while u can .
cherish while u r given chance .
love wit all u can .
care wit all ur heart .
speak wit ur mind .
do wad u lyk wit no worries .
u r supported by me !

2008-07-23T18:27:00.002+08:00

yeasss . thx to all the ppl hu wished me happy bday lols ! thx thx ;x
1st time so happy rofls . ;x
okiessssssss enjoy my meal later post agains ;x
i dunno but somehow tis bday is my most happy . and most sad too =p
TMR N lvl oral (chinese) and seekee's 1 month anni ! GRATS .
hahas ;x kk bye bye ;x
oh yeas . i played bball . now toe not much injured but ankle kena ;x
haiyooooo y so stupid ! *tempting mahs !*
kk take care ~

2008-07-22T18:38:00.002+08:00

woohooooooooooooooooooooooooooo .
tmr birthday ! ^^
yeasssssssssssss
hahas . feel quite happy . yet quite sad lols .
(dun ask y i feel sad)

seekee ! ;x 2 more days ur 1 month anni ;o grats grats . last long yeas ? hope ur 24 months wish come true .

xueting darling ! ;x long time no post bout u uhs . thx to my stupid comp lols ;x find ur *boy* and show him u love him ! lols ;x

szeman sweetie ! ;x dun nid feel honoured . lols ;x i jus posting bout everyone . dun wan make my blog look dead hehes ;x mus come out 1 day uhs ;x hahas . dun care bout those passerby in ur blog . hope ur blog faster work ^^ hope u find ur true love soon ;x

milo bro ! ;x work hard ! jys . gambate ! u can do it . earn tt sum of money ! save it up . ur dream will come true !~

ash bro ! ;x u can do it de ! RAWRS ! c u tmr and sat yars ?! i am not dead ;x

to all whom r not mention . TAKE CARE . rmb . good luck for anything tt u do ;x

SENTENCES TO BE COPIED T.T
1) other people's thrash might be someone's treasure
2) the old shoes tt ppl throw might be ur new shoe tt u wanna wear
3) a sentence which makes no sense might be the inspiration for u
4) rmb nvr to look back as eyes r in the front of ur face for a reason
5) turning back might be a happiness
6) treasure ppl around u as u might lose them anytime

so much for today bahs ;x lazy tink . i promise i wun make my blog dead !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME TMRRRRRRRR ! ;x;x;x
hahas . take care . wit loves from me to all ppl hu noe me out dere ! ^^

2008-07-19T14:00:00.002+08:00

rawrs . time pass so slow . when will 26th past . haisssssssss .
hope u stay happy yeas ? last long wit ur boy .
(all my frens, hope u all stay happy)
(all my bros, hope u all stay happy)
to all those hu noe me and i dunno u .
TAKE CARE !
wit loves ~

2008-07-17T20:19:00.004+08:00

xueting darling . for u de LOLS . cute mahs ? ;x

vodka bottle wit water babies LOVES !

cute ? lols ! water babies rox loves !

2008-07-17T17:28:00.003+08:00

lols . xueting/darling got a boi lurhs ~ Grats !
seekee aint said much . she jus say hw i noe she got chalet .
cos i read her blog EVERYDAY ! lols ...

seekee : working hard mahs ? i already studying super hard . hais . nvr done so much in my life b4 . take care yeas ? 24th coming soon . ur happy day . ur 1st month anni . and u wish for 24 months so led it pass by real quick yeas ? hope u happy . hope u last forever wit ur boi . cares ~

milo bro : sorrie tt u tink i treat seekee more impt den u all . i am really sorrie . i didnt mean to gif u tt kinda impression .. is my fault . sorrie !

ash bro : i am not dead ;o stop saying i am dead =.= and u miss those laughters can come farrer park get . ;x i aint gone . so i dun haf to come back lurhs .

tt's all bahs . really no mood post much . hais ..

2008-07-14T16:48:00.002+08:00

hais . though my mood isnt getting btr . and it aint btr . but nvm . i shall post bahs ... ytd erica and justin came my hse ton . 2dae follow them to bunk so bored . i jus <3 shawn . my bro 4eva . milo and ash . i nvr forget u 2 . so dun worry .

thx for ur hug jus nw . though it was jus 2 secs . i appreciate it . but i tink from nw on . u dun haf to hug me . i dun wan u to haf any problems .if he sees u hugging me . he will definitely find me . i dun mind . i got frens .they r my loyal bros . they will help . but i dun wan u to haf any problem . even if i cant help . every1 noes i still will help . though i dun dare chiong .nor noe hw to fight . but i will still do my best to protect u . from 12th june .all the sms u sent me . i haf saved them . i will nvr forget the moments of happiness .those moments r my most memorable moments in my entire life . i do hope he is gd . he treats u nice . of cos . if u feel sad . jus gif mi a call . i do hope u rmb of me whenever u r sad or not feeling gd . i dun mind . though u tink u r bad to me . i tink u r gd to me . i tink u r giving me a chance .a chance to take care and console u . comfort and care for u . mayb we wun be meeting soon ? but i do noe . in audi . jus nw . u were talking bout 26th .dun bother . i wun come out . u jus haf ur fun . and i will be happy . i dun nid u to haf fun wit me so tt i can be happy . as long u happy . i am happy .

milo bro : take care yars ? we r meeting lesser nwadays . so leds meet up more when free .

ash bro : take care yars ? ur studies stress can come farrer park share . i dun mind .

szeman sweety : thx . i noe u did care alot for me . take care of urself yeas ? if guys out there . can make ur heart melt . promise me u will treasure them yars ? u r a gd gal . u deserve a gd guy too . dun care bout the passerby . he is a fker .

xueting darling : thx for ur concern . i noe tis darling of urs meant quite alot to u . u mean alot to me too . i noe u care for me . sorrie if i dun heed ur advice . neither do i listen to u . when i stubborn . really nth can get in . sorrie !

tt's it . shall post soon .
take care readers .
wit loves ~

2008-07-10T22:51:00.002+08:00

SILENT IS NOT GONNA POST ANYMORE .
TILL HIS MOOD GET BTR .
HE SHALL BE DEAD FOR NOW .
MAYB FOREVER .
MAYB NEVER .

HE ALSO DUNNO .

CARES ~

2008-07-09T19:09:00.003+08:00

tmr is my N lvls oral ... wit tis kinda mood . may i noe hw to do hais ...
i keep smiling but isit my true self? i feel not kinda left out .
however i feel kinda non-existence . hais . is my teacher sure i can get 34/40 ?
hais ... no one except u can make me haf the mood . dun ask hu .
i kinda gif up on studying . none of ur promises came true .
study b4 prelims ? doubt is gonna happen . u jus got a bf b4 prelims .
guess he shall pei u bahs . u said celebrate my bday .
however on a later date ? can my bday be moved ?? lols ...
u said u gonna celebrate xmas eve wit me . i wonder will it come true .
i haf many wonders . but not a single wonderful thing .
tt's the diff of wonders and wonderful .
a person can do many wonders . and can wonder many thing .
but tis doesnt mean something wonderful is happening .
i am really veri stressed up . fking fking stressed .
led me tell u 1 more thing ? i trained my pool skills to match urs .
nw yes i am good . mayb not so good yet . i still training .
but does it matter nw ? i dun get to play wit u lurhs .
the last time i played wit u was on the 24/12/2007 .
it was last yr ! hais ... u noe hw long lurhs ?? already 7 months liaos ...
tt's hw fast time pass . tt's almost hw long i waited . u noe it .
u can feel it i guess . actually i dunno y i saying tis .
when i noe we wun stead . hahas ... led it be . my life is as fked up as it is .
leds cont to fk it upside down . topsy turvy and inside out .
wad a lame life . if the quiz ask me whether i haf a life i would lyk to say no .
hais . many qns many doubts . u sure u gonna clear it for me ?
r u even gonna clear it ? or do u even noe whether u can clear it ?
i am gd for nth . in p4l . they call me the brains . in my life . they call me advisor .
in fantasy . they call me silent . in reality . i am jus nth ^^
i noe i cant do anything . so jus led me say wad i feel . many times . ppl say .
i dun tell wad i feel . but when i tell . ppl cry . when i tell . ppl say i veri emo .
hahas . tis is my life . a lifeless life . i really dun get anything i am doin .
am i tt dumb ? mayb i am . or is it u r jus too smart for me .
i lost many frens . lost many loved ones . left a few . they r veri close to me .
but so wad ? mayb u do appreciate it . but u cant accept it . i aint the looks .
nor the brain . nor anything to fit into ur lifestyle .
hope u tell me when u feeling sad or smth . and nobody is dere to pei u .
i would jus lyk to be ur spare tyre . a life bouy . a listening ear .
a leaning shoulder . or a tear to share wit u ur sorrow and a smile to share ur happiness .
anytime i will be here for u . many times . i say rubbish . i gif bullshit advice .
ppl listen . cos lady luck shines on me . its spot on . but i not the facts . is jus coincidence .
so dun worry ppl . at times if u find me a nuisance . shut me up in the face .
i appreciate it . and i would lyk u ppl to do tt . hais ... cares ~

2008-07-09T15:51:00.002+08:00

2dae went to schl lyk normal . tot of emo-ing in schl but didnt .
i didnt wanna whack any ppl . so i tried acting normal lyk nth happen .
i also couldnt . tis is hw useless i am ^^ hahas .
i did smile and laugh alot in schl . but it jus aches my heart .
i ate handmade noodles/ban mian 2dae agains . nice . but no use .
i came home and vomit everything out . wanna try fit into her life .
vomit vomit bla bla ~ vomit till blood came along . lols .
nw smoking at a spd of 1-2 mins per stick .
nth much is left except u . i tried to cut everything .
size , smoking , money spending wise .
jus to save for our *future* ( mayb no more future though )
u told me once u were not interested in bgr . i aint pressure u .
i didnt wan to go against u . therefore i respected ur decision .
hahas . i even so stupid to ask u to take off ur boyfren's name .
tis i apologise a million times . so sorrie .
no matter wad u do nxt time . mayb i cant care much .
cos i aint haf the right to say anything much more .
when its raining and i am not there to shelter u from the rain .
hope i can shelter ur heart from the cold .
if u r sad . and i am not there for u .
hope i can be ur sunshine .
if u tired , and i cant be nxt to u for u to lean on .
i hope to be able to help u rest .
if u happen to be trapped in the dark .
hope i am ur light .
all these r jus sentences from movies bla bla ~
but wit a sincere voice of mine . i do hope things change .
saying is easy . doin is hard . proving it is harder .
but the hardest is to maintain it .
the red piece of glass aint jus a toy .
its a heart . a sincere heart tt loves u .
u cant deny tt u dunno tt .
but u can dun accept the love i haf for u .
hope u last long wit ur dear of cos .
no matter wad . i wun be leaving u .
is u shall be leaving me .
i will be by ur side whenever u nid me .
we will jus be a sms or a call away .
sincerely hope u take care of urself .
though i might not be the one for u .
jus hope his the 1 for u . hahas .
our lifestyle doesnt fit . neither does out thoughts and feelings .
is all along a 1 way traffic . i haf been goin in and u haf nvr came out .
a 1 sided love aint hurting . the love i haf for u is a gift from god .
the way u r is a grace from heaven .
though god's gift might not be able to take god's grace .
but god's gift will definitely keep god's grace in the box .
a few song to dedicate to u . if u wan get from me .
无条件为你 , heartbreak lullaby (u shld haf tis )
男人女人 , going crazy .
hahas ... tt's it for nw bahs ... cont in the night .
cares yeas ? loves seekee ~

2008-07-08T17:33:00.004+08:00

2dae went to acupuncture ... was quite happy at the beginning ... mayb i went to ur blog so saw smth wrong ... my mood totally went down ... hais ...

seekee : if u haf a dar ... jus tell me ... i wun mind ... hais ... take care and last long wit ur dar ... guess i shall jus be ur fren ... not even a gan ... take care yeas ... if u tinking wad makes me tink so ... i saw ur blog , " u were supposed to meet huimin but met dardar ! (: " so yeas ... hope i am wrong ... but mayb i dun wan be wrong ... hope he can gif u happiness tt u nid ... mayb i am not the one ... i noe my own standard ... u told me u didnt wan to get into bgr ... so i didnt ask ... mayb even i did i would haf failed ... hahas ... so forget it bahs ... i respect ur every decision ... hais ... thx for ur msn nick 2 days ago ... i saw ... quite honoured , " editing photos , dun talk to me except nuers and silent (: " really felt veri happy ... thx ... mayb i guess i will be alone for the rest for xmas ... and even my upcoming bday which i tot of askin u to celebrate wit me ... but hais ... dun nid lurhs ... i guess i wun haf the chance to show wad i did and wanna do for u anymore ... but nvm ... i jus tell u den ... i wanted make u a heart shape box filled wit water babies ... and of cos a box of donuts ... one of ur fav ... i even tried quitting smoking for u ... i did succeed but still a few sticks a day ... cos i do noe u dun lyk the smoke smell much ... i did many things for u ... none i did for any other gal ... hais ... really wish u good luck ... and hope ur dar treat u well ... last long if possible ... mayb another 2 yrs or longer i shall wait ... anyway i waited so long lurhs ... i dun mind waiting a lil longer ... hahas ... sorrie for being so naggy ... once again , last but not least , take real good care of urself ...

clara mei : thx for trying to cheer me up but no thx ... i dun feel lyk ... i jus remain as it is ... used to it ... thx alots ... <3

milo bro : yeas mayb we r all sick ... love sick ... hahas ...

ash bro : yeas ... guess there's nth much to say now ... wish u gl ...

hais ... sorrie for the emo post yeas ... read it or not up to u ... but if u read till tis stage ... thx for lending me ur eyes ... appreciated ...
bye readers ...
(rmb cherish them while u haf ... is nt hw long it last ... is whether u once had them , and once treasured them , if u did ... tt's enuff ... u done all u can ... )

2008-07-07T23:18:00.004+08:00

hello peeps . feeling kinda bored . seekee soooooo busy . sians . SEEKEE !! if u read tis . i not blaming u uhs =x jus letting out my sadness lols =x

seekee : take care in wadeva u do uhs . nxt time dun nid worry i misunderstand u . in the night come back den msn me ^^ dun nid waste $$ call me . or bla bla . i wun misunderstand u . even if i do . is i sad myself . so dun bother bout those msg okies ? :o nvr seen u for quite a few weeks lurhs . wanted buy a box of donuts . and make some presents for u . but seems lyk u quite busy to meet me uhs . always fully booked for the whole week . hahas . mayb soon we will meet ? xmas eve uhs . i wish not so far bahs ><

milo bro : take care of ur own health :o my condition worse but i got slowly take care or mayb i dun show out . so take care take care ! wit loves from ur noisy bro silent . LOLS kinda contradicting =x psps .

ash bro : is okie even if we meet lesser . our feelings is dere ! our trust is dere ! so take care with much loves ~ and rmb . surprises helps . but too much . will get a rebound effect . psychology power LOLS . looks lyk i suit more to a poly student den u =x HAHAHAHAS .

larry bird : hihi !!! saw u 2dae at wawa lan :o happy mahs ? =x LOLS . ur pool skills so pro when wit me . with other so lousy . u nb turtle brain ! take care yeas ? if u nid my advice find me =x though is bullshit i dun mind saying ROFLS . take care wit loves .

nothing much to say lurhs . quite tired .
nights readers . rmb to study hard ! tmr schl lurhs .
and of cos . REST EARLY .
cares wit loves .

2008-07-07T01:45:00.002+08:00

veri veri tired !! i wan faster post and slp . but 2dae so much thing post i guess =x

milo bro : lols . if i could tink bout the happy things . i would . but even u cant . ^^ so jus led it be i see hw lors . lets wait as days pass by hahas .

ash bro : 2dae ur turn to be dead . dunno missing go where . hope tmr u success !! GAMBATE !

Szeman/sweetie : dun worry . jus nw in maple say everything lurhs hors ? if u still worried or scared i keep things to myself den u ask me so i will tell u lors ^^

Larry : thx for ur post ^^ but my advices r bullshit de . jus tyco hit on the spot . hahas .

i saw 1 qns in the quiz . they asked when u last cry . many ppl put personal .
hahas . my ans is : 1st cry 23/7/1991 , last cry 12/6/2008 LOLS .

i really veri tired !!!!!! RAWRS !

Seekee : feel so honoured in ur msn nick . except nuers and silent can talk to u when u r busy uhs o.o lols . thx thx ~ seems lyk u also quite tired . bo reply my msn jiu off9 lurhs . hope u sleep tight uhs ~ sweet dreams ! loves .

I STILL FEELING TIRED .
nth much left to post also ._.
ohs ~

wawa/shagua : tmr making ic uhs ~ big gal liaos . learn to take care of urself k ? ^^ shld be mature by nw =x not so childish =x=x=x=x LOLS .

and last but not least !

gonna find larry tmr at around 12+ mayb ?
after my acupuncture and stuffs .

KK TAKE CARE READERS . wit loves .

2008-07-05T21:09:00.003+08:00

SO SO SORRIE ! ytd nvr post . i tired . so went off to bed . tried slping but toss and turned . i tink a while later jiu fell asleep lols . i heard xueting/darling sleepy voice agains ! hahas =x

2dae went schl take attendance for some event thingy den went off lurhs lols . met milo at katong . went there wit des chor heng brian giorgio kjun and more ! after which went to eat banmian/handmade noodles . den met ash at my hse in the afternoon den went off lurhs .

milo bro : take care of urself yeas ? she ur fren . i noe u dun wan her worry . or dun wan us worry . jus eat ur medicine . ^^ take cares .

ash bro : saw ur post said i went missing uhs ? LOLS . u den went missing ! RAWRS ! bite u den u noe lols . hope u r happy wit tt thing . treasure it well . make it look nice !

xueting/darling : say i nvr post u uhs =x nw i post u ^^ rofls . happy mahs ? =x if u wan sms jus sms ! if i busy i will tell u k ^^ <3

seekee : woohoo . jus called u jus nw u picked up within 3 secs ! LOLS . so happy . loves . take care yeas ? eat more ! of cos rest more >_< . hahas . u been goin out lately uhs .

wawa/shagua : when u wan the tuition huhs lols ! do i sound emo these few days ? no more rite . of cos . seekee picked up my call =x LOLS . hw happy can i get .

tt's roughly it . off to dota .
bye guys TAKE CARE ! with loves .

2008-07-03T21:24:00.002+08:00

seekee talking to me now :o happy ~ ^^ if we stay lyk tis forever . a day 1 word i also happy . thx uhs ! I TRUST U FULLY . so dun ask me whether i believe rumours about u .

milo bro : dun worry cos i trust tt we wun be lyk spartans . take care of urself . the $10 is not a REN QING . get it clear uhs ^^ take care ~

ash bro : hws was my advice =x success ? 1st time do >_< lmaos ="p">

no more sentence gif ppl copy today uhs ~ hw ._. LOLS ! nid any sentences ask me see whether i can help ? =p

played pool today wit milo , ash , brian , desmond , giorgio , kjun and 6 other gals (which i am not interested to noe and dun wanna noe them) *cos i got seekee's reply <3*

hahas . tt's it for 2dae . short post =p
TAKE CARE READERS !

2008-07-03T00:31:00.004+08:00

many many things happened today ! ~ LOLS .
met ash jus nw from 8+ to 10+ ^^
milo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u nudge me by accident =x LOLS .
wawa xiao gua . is tis counted *EMO* >_< or wad ?
wan own pool uhs . sure sure led u own LOLS .
i pro in pool cos of seekee nias . nobody else lurhs . will nvr forget tt xmas eve i spent wit her and i lost to her . although i lost i was happy to haf her by my side . so its okie ^^

many sentences for u all peeps to copy .
1) our IMPERFECTIONS makes us PERFECT for each other :)
2) it also helps to think we r all sleeping under the same blanket(sky)
3) trust , love , care and concern is impt . but the honour to cherish it is more impt .
4) treasuring and cherishing is a GREAT GREAT romantic thing to do .
5) loving is obviously not romantic without actions, surprises aint smth if u aint lovin him/her .

tt's it for today . <3s
TAKE CARE READERS .

2008-07-01T22:07:00.003+08:00

gonna make it a short post these few days . not really in the mood . yeas . guys out there . or gals out there . cherish ur loved ones . once gone its gone . many chances r given . jus tt if flashes past us . it all depends whether we r fast enuff to react as to grab the chance . once gone its gone . the past will nvr be the future . its a fact tt nvr changes . no matter hw much u love a person . dun nid show it de . if the person love u too . u will feel it . mayb its a emo post but i apologise . i post wadeva tt suits my mood . feel free to copy sentences from me . dun use it to hong can lurhs . thx . waiting sux . dreaming sux more . but if u put it together . which means a fantasy . its a dream tt u mus wait forever . its jus so sweet . 2 diff things when come tgt . a certain spark will fickle and start off a fire tt may nvr stop . so rmb to light the correct fire and not too many at once . the effect will bounce . and of cos . if nid any help . feel free to find me . can help i sure help .

2dae went to katong play pool wit milo ash and a new fren called jason :)
had quite alot of fun . but kinda stressed suddenly . so i smoked 4 sticks 2dae .
a few days back . leds see ...
3 days ago - 6
2 days ago - 18
ytd - 8
yeps . tt's bout it . take care guys .

2008-07-01T00:09:00.004+08:00

To Seekee : thx fren . i noe u r busy . thx for posting me on ur blog . i appreciate the reply ^^ i guess u been reading my blog or smth ? hahas . i get ur hint ^^ . not really forcing u to any bgr . serious . is jus my fantasy towards u yeas? dun worry too much about me . GAMBATE for ur N lvls . hahas . hope u get close to ur frens and spend more time wit them ^^ .

looks lyk the hint is a lil obvious . cos ur blog already kinda caps the words . u will *forever rmb u had a fren named silent* . i will be ur fren 4eva . hahas ... glad u noticed me . tt's all tis blog was for . thx alot . i appreciate yeas . i really do appreciate it alot . smsing u nw . wit a tear . and of cos blogging tis at the same time . amazing yeas ?

My desires for u .
1) rmb slp more
2) rmb eat more
3) rmb to take care of ur studies
4) dun keep playing games
5) go out less often
6) bring the pills for stomach ache in emergency cases
7) stay happy 4eva
8) jus a reply from u to led me noe u r safe once a wk
9) careful while choosing ur frens
10) drink more water
11) hope u remain tis childish and innocence of urs 4eva (cute)
12) hope u pass ur N lvls
13) hope u grow prettier
14) find btr frens den me
15) hope u find ur true <3

sorrie for being so naggy . and so demanding . u can choose wad u wanna do . and wad u dun wanna do . i really wun mind . cos i am in no position to ask u do anything . jus a fren of urs . listen or not up to u hahas . last but not least . take care my laopo <3>

2008-06-30T23:53:00.002+08:00

SEEKEE : RIGHT NOW ! u r on9 in msn would u jus reply me . sians . i feel really helpless . and further more when my frens get into trouble or emo status i get more worried bout them . and begin to miss u more . thus worrying the most bout u . would u tell me hw to overcome tis problem or even teach me how to solve it ? ._.

Tis post is meant specially for u . nobody has such privilege . i realise u r quite impt nw . but nw tt u r gone . or mayb u were nvr here . i start to realise tt i cant really stop tinking bout u . whenever i slack or do anything . u r the 1st to be reminded of . many ppl live on diff view of life .

e.g. nothing is impossible , everything has a reason , and bla bla ~

for me . i live on a simple reason too . is jus for u .

view of my life would be . everything reminds a person of smth , some1 or somewhere .

mayb u would nvr read tis . but i do hope u do . i jus wanna remain close frens at least .
i am not gonna tink of anywhere far lyk stead or wadeva . all i wan is ur promises done . remember which promise ? studying together for prelims and N lvls . spending our XMAS tgt agains . mayb u might forget . but tis lil tiny bit of words u said . is lyk a tatoo to my brain . it stays dere forever . is jus cant go away . every things u did already carved a impact on my heart . and every lil movement u make jus attracts me to wan u more . MOST IMPORTANTLY . everything bout u , is DEFINITELY my concern .

2008-06-30T23:19:00.007+08:00

jus came back from meeting ash bro . we were jk all the way . and talking bout our life lols .
meeting milo tmr . hmms . wonder hw drama i gonna be =x LOLS .
feeling not in the mood rite now to blog but its okie . i gonna share my life wit u readers .
ate lontong 2dae . TWICE sumore =x no lurhs . is jus dam nice .
and of cos . drink lepak all . LOLS . (lepak = slack)

milo bro : u were nvr any trouble to me . nobody is a trouble to me . onli i bring trouble to others hahas . tc yar ? see u tmr <3

ash bro : u nb teng teng ! most shuai . so many zharbo jio u ._. i jealous hw ? seekee not even replying . i feel sad TT .

xueting/darling : i dun really noe wad happen to u . but i really am worried . be it a gan darling a best fren or wadeva . jus sms me asap . of cos u wun noe hw i worry . u r not me ^^ u wan u tc bahs . dun feel lyk smsing jus tell me . thx .

dawn : thx for trying to help me get together wit seekee . but no thx . is jus a fantasy . i rather keep her as a best fren . hope u change for the btr . and get a btr stead . of cos taste change also uhs . dun choose lyk me so low standard de ^^ cares ~

not really much in the mood . hais . hu wan lend me shoulder ?
nahs . jk de . hahas .. i veri hong rite ? would someone gif mi a slap .
STRAIGHT in the face . and tell me i am a hongster .
slap me till i wake up . i dun feel lyk carrying on . i really feel tired .
problems everywhere . and of cos . my own problems .

last but not least . sorrie wawa and milo . mayb i done u 2 wrong yeas ?
i guess i should not interfere much . bro u tc ya ?
xiaogua . take care of bi bo bi bo . the 2 lil hamsters .
and of cos cherish matthew . i dun gonna be ur counsellor .
i aint wanna gif wrong advice ya ? so sorrie if i ever mislead u to a wrong direction .
i hereby sincerly apologise . *SORRIE !*
hope u forgive . and mayb i ever irritated u wit all my stupid bullshit .
take care too ya ? bb .

hais . kk . tt's it for nw readers . sleep early .
(wad a moody way to end the post) (sorrie for the mood)

2008-06-30T17:53:00.004+08:00

hi agains .... ~ wad a moody day ...
jus came back from acupuncture .
to quit smoking / the broken bone .
jus felt lyk . its so funny . suddenly getting a serious heartache out of no where .

milo bro : wadeva she say or does . i will try my best to help u . in terms of a listening ear . or a helping hand . or mayb even help u let go . take care ya?

ash bro : wad to write bout u . u contact me so lil lols . later coming over find me uhs . will be waiting . cya soon .

xueting/darling : lols . mood swing today? i 4low ur mood swing bahs . suddenly dun feel tt happy . hahas .. i trust ur taste not so bad to love me de . hahas . so even hw gd i treat u . is jus a gan darling mayb ? i dun haf tt kinda luck lurhs . dulan ur father smoke ? another reason for u not to love me lols . so i dun really trust ur sentence . cos is a copyright :)

SEEKEE : it looks lyk u aint wanna reply a sms . ans a call . a reply of my msn . or mayb . u already forgotten me . u will still be on my post everyday . i wun forget u . mayb i would not for nw . hahas . jus led me love u for fun . even my ex calls me a flirt . i tink i am too . so to be fair to u . u dun really haf to love me back ^^ a gan stead or a gan will do . mayb no gan jus a fren will do . as long u reply my msg or ans me smth? lols . i really dunno wad to do . since 12th june . till nw . u understand tt kinda feeling? i not forcing u to a bgr . jus wan a reply . sorrie for doin so much ridiculous shyt to get a reply for u . but i really am desperate for tt reply lurhs .

haisss ... is dere smth i can do . i really wonder . so called advices i gif . i feel lyk is all bullshit . is nth but a piece of shyt . is jus my 1 sided feeling . and 1 sided tot . and i tell ppl tt is my advice for them . instead of helping them . i making more trouble for them . y am i made fun of until liddat . do i deserve to help ppl . or mayb i nid help 1st? hahas . i really wonder .

a sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad day !
TAKE CARE IF U WISH <3

2008-06-29T23:07:00.002+08:00

hi guys and gals lols . 2dae went to aljunied find milo/bro and kolyn/xiaogua
den after tt larry came find me . and daniel came along .
in the end the latest was the star =.= matthew LOLS ^^
yihui and bingfu came along later . quite fun the whole day .
we shoot yihui until veri funny . got 1 part she shoot herself .
*hamster looked at her . she say . the hamster lyk trying to say u look wierd*
(main point : the hamster was looking at her LOLS)

kolyn/xiaogua : dun so stress lolols . take care ya?

milo bro : lols . dun worry . i still on ur side . ^^ take care .

ash bro : CHEER UP . thx for trying to help . we see hw it goes ^^

seekee : sians ._. jus talked to u in msn bo reply . lols i will wait .

fk sia =.= fren de GF tio taiji ask me help . den tt gal noe ahlong and all z . i really fking fan . do wad do wad . ccb lurhs . knn siol =.= dun feel lyk posting lurhs . z
nites readers <3

2008-06-29T10:30:00.003+08:00

hi agains ~ ps ytd bo post ._. hahas .
was talking to xueting/darling and xiongmao/mei .
i wonder if i did slept on the fone zz .
jus smsed milo bro . he said at her area lurhs .
i would be goin down quite soon too .
YTD . it was matthew/kallang's wave birthday !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTHEW .
we all went to parklane de pool . opened 3 table :o
played until quite mad . i win abit lose more ><
cos dere all pros lolols =x and ASH !!!!
ASH SUPER DUPER PRO IN POOL DE ._. tio thrashed by him
HAHAS =x

milo bro : u do care lols . is hard not to care uhs?

ash bro : so hw o.o cheered up yet? lols .

xueting/darling : k lurhs u not si monkey . huo monkey okies? <3

seekee : when would u ever reply . lolols . i wait for u veri long uhs =x i tink i wait for ur reply super duper long lurhs ._. but actually i nvr sms u . hoping u sms me 1st hahas . sadded ._. take care uhs . hope u safe and sound <3 ^^

dawn : i dun tink u nid to come my hse lurhs . u always come and cry . and u r always breaking ur promises . if u would lyk to noe wad u broke led me tell .
1) u said u wun cry no more
2) u told me say u wun bother me further
3) u said u wun sms me till i sms u
4) u said u would wait for my reply but u didnt .
is all tis enuff? i hope u r reading . u always say u wan noe my feelings rite? nw i tell u . if i wanna break den patch . i tink is a stupid thing . i dun wish to get hurt . and led u gain my attention by doin tis kinda stupid things . jus forget it ya? leds jus stay as frens . if u cont to make it worse . i am afraid to say tt we wouldnt even be frens . but definitely we wun be enemies . and ya i do love seekee . but so wad . is my fantasy nias . a 1-sided love . but is btr den gaining ppl attention by doin wrong things . is a blessing to love a person . a romantic thing to be waiting . and a meaningful thing if u really love tt person . and most importantly an honour to treasure and cherish tt person . i do hope even if we remain as frens . u would change for the btr . ^^

jillene : u abit abit jealous uhs . LOLS ! i tink u r =x but dun get jealous lurhs .
hahas . i do wanna stead wit seekee . but i still <3 u as a gan dear or a fren ^^

WAH LIEWS . my mother call me so *niang* =.=
(if her mother lie down dere . i will make her mum pregnant and ask her to call me dad)
*quoted from AH LONG PTE LTD* LOLS !

kk tt's all readers TAKE CARE <3s

2008-06-28T00:30:00.011+08:00

talking to xueting/darling nw lols . she keep laughing . she watching AHLONG PTE LTD . diaos =.= LAUGHING MONKEY siol LOLS . =x (dun angry uhs) jus told her on fone den tio GAN T.T poor thing / KO LIAN DAI T.T she see the person eat snake . she screaming . she hear ahlong singing . she start laughing . KO AI lehs !~ ^^

milo bro : if u wan noe i sure tell . i lazy tell for nth . cos u all cant help . at least i can lend ash a listening ear as he spends lil time wit us . and as for u . i noe wawa so can listen and understand . p4L HUAT 4eva !

ash bro : thx for caring bout my legs =x LOLS <3 i care for milo cos i can help as i noe wawa . for u i onli lend listening ear . u got anything to say can tell me . i sure listen . wan go out can jio . (dun bother bout my leg) hahas . small injury nias ^^ p4L HUAT 4eva !

.../dawn : lols . dun nid hide . u wan u put ur name thx . lols . y wan be hidden when u noe i noe its u . aiyahs jus take care . a nickname princess also u wan jealous . i really bwg ^^ u nickname urself as a piglet i called u so . u nickname urself as a empress a princess i also will call u liddat . importance of a nick so meaningful to u . y cre8 a piglet which is so insignificant lurhs? u wan cre8 a meaningful 1 den i call u lors ^^ i dun mind . take care bahs .

seekee/princess : when u gonna reply siol . waiting so long lols ._.

2dae i went schl . quite fun . became smart 2dae . answered many qns =p
3days ago smoked 4 sticks .
2days ago smoked 2 sticks .
1day ago smoked 1 stick .
2dae (no more ago) smoked 1 and a half stick . hw guai ~
actually is do acupuncture . for quitting smoking .
hahas . become guai . but i will start anytime warn u all 1st ! hahas=x

kk tt's all . take care readers <3

2008-06-26T20:50:00.004+08:00

hahas . talking to clara / deadlala nw ^^
many things happen 2dae lols .
AND YTD =x ps bo post ytd .
ytd met wit bro . so fun . chat bout everything on the world .
den we slack till milo left . ash came my hse till 10++ den left ^^

2dae met bro agains . they came my schl fetch me . so touched =x
BUT . actually is come ask me play pool =.= bully me tis crippled guy .
i feel so KO LIAN DAI T.T . hahas .

jillene sms me 2dae ^^ hahas

dawn ask me dun reply jiu nvm . will wait for reply .

seekee onli say sorrie for not replying my msg .
but i wan was her reply . not a sorrie though .
however her sorrie was a reply ^^ so nvm lurhs
she's always busy . hahas . forgive her .

erica jie kinda long time bo contact me hahas .
hope we meet someday soon wit seekee lurhs .

milo bro keep stressing me in dota .
den keep complaining rl stuff to me LOLS . =x
ps if i shoot u too much uhs .

ash bro keep NAGGING in rl =x hahahas .
but it was fun . hahas . ps if i shoot u too much uhs .

szeman lyk long time no talk . i bo sms her she nvr sms de .

xueting lyk keep hearing me slp on fone ><
FEEL SO PS !!! hahas =x

xiongmao mei forever busy . bo reply de .
say call call call but nvr ever call de =p

TAKE CARE READERS ^^ <3

2008-06-25T05:00:00.000+08:00

lols . sians . hi again readers ^^2dae pon schl so fun =p
BUT IT COS I GOT A BROKEN TOE LURHS T.T
lols =x stupid male doc come in do acupuncture say nth wrong .
wrap abit den okie lurhs . in the end the main doc (female) came in .
straight say nid do xray . recommended me to TPY clinic for a xray .
den go back wrap my leg . POOR THING HORS T.T
ohs~ talk so long bo say leg wad happen .
injured toe =x a crack in the bone . and a lil tear in the veins lols .
hurts so much . ytd went schl walk alot .
doc scold me say mus rest at home LOLS ! i hope i can too =x
(actually i wish to rest at home alot too) *cheeky smile*
quite boring lurhs 2dae .

milo bro came find me 2dae lols . keep chatting . chat many many things .
BRO ! HOPE U CHANGE UR ATTITUDE EHS ^^ i support u .
anything find me !!~

ASH BRO ! RAWRS ! say my blog not so dead . wad u mean huhs . ur blog veri lively uhs .
say until my blog so poor thing
u noe u offended my blogs feeling? its heart is
cos nobody noticed it =x
den u come say liddat . T.T
nw its heart is
ROFLS ><

kk take care readers <3

*chatting wit xueting/darling rite nw hahas =x*
(DUN MISUNDERSTAND ! RAWRS !)

2008-06-24T08:50:00.000+08:00

jus back from schl !!! HEY GUYS ~ HELLO ^^
hw u all feel after the 1st day of schl? bored ? fun ?
i felt lyk shyt . cos my toe =.=
veins burst . den toe green colour . (eww rite?)
wore slippers to school . hard to walk z .
so pain lurhs . 1st time kena den still ok .
den came home hit the SAME toe SAME spot on the corner of the bed .
2dae went to eat lunch gif my fren step ! CCB =x
dam pain siol .

xiongmao/mei : lols ! the story also u cant find . u really lousy lurhs =x u said u love ur sis so much . ur hubby lurhs? LOLS

xueting/darling : darling . see ur sis love u hw much? mus love her back lurhs . dun whole day say she got bf dun care u LOLS =x dun worry . i wun tell the secret u jealous of her got bf =x

tt's all for 2dae folks . TAKE CARE UHS <3
(wad's up duck) LOLS !

2008-06-23T11:15:00.000+08:00

nw talking to winny . hahas ! jus finished dinner . ate 3 bread . hahas .

NIDALOH ! ahlian core ! whole day mapling bo reply msn lols .

milo bro ! dota is jus a game . relax and play . lose or win is depending on the way hw ppl play . we were all noob once ^^ so jus go easy on them and dun scold them . giving pressure will make them more stressed and feed more =p encourage them btr ^^

XUETING/darling ! grats married in maple . really veri impatient lil gal . lols ! jy on lv bahs ^^

SZEMAN/sweety ! dun angry lurhs . u got so many other frens to cheer u up . hahas . jus cheer up haf fun . ur maple bf also can help calm u down? or make u feel btr hahas . dun so ahlian lurhs =x hahas ><

SEEKEE/princess ! everyday go out . wonder start schl hw u cope back =x hahas . dun forget u promise me study tgt for both prelims and N lvls uhs . i tink u sure forget de . Xmas also =p i wun forget wad u promise uhs ^^ u r so dead ~~~ i gonna pester u for life lolols =x

TMR SCHOOL STARTING !!!!! everyone feeling down uhs ? 2dae all lyk bo mood when hear schl starting lols =x schl start fun mahs ^^ can chat to ur fren all . den sumore ur parents always remind u ~ " STUDY FOR UR OWN GOOD , U PASS i happy , u earn more money u enjoy life not i enjoy life , u fail i pokai ! not onli mus pay 1 more yr of schl fees , still mus work 1 more yr for u " LOLS . rmb study hard ! i will try to study hard too =x hahas .

tt's all for 2dae ~ TAKE CARE READERS <3

2008-06-22T18:15:00.000+08:00

today went katong play pool quite fun . nvr lost a match . but tyco de =p bo skill lurhs . bro all gif way ! thx <3>
oh yars ~ 2dae we found out my brother (rl) was a saddistic kid . he laughs at anything . including head being chopped off and ETC ~.~
did many things today . had quite alot of fun . but if doing things wit ur loved ones . anything would be fun . even sitting down staring at each other in the face . sparks of laughter will appear . apparently i dun haf any loved ones lurhs =p . hahas . 2dae go play bball after pool . gam pua suay . shoot bu dao 3 balls . last toe fractured . nw i lyk bai ka !! TT zzz pain siol . sians . cannot go anywhere hahas . bored sia . den i came home hit my bloody same toe at the end of the bed . zzz . double injury . TT ko lian dai !
BRING BACK THE STORY TO 12TH OF JUNE .
tis is the unforgettable day =p i cried . (i noe hard to believe) i sent the broke up sms . but i didnt cry for her . sad rite? i am such a bastard . wonder y she loved me . if she doesnt love me . it would be understable . but i dun understand y she loved me . well nvm . its over lurhs . dawn , take care ya? dun cry lurhs =p big gal liaos . CONT , celebrated a gan jie of mine called erica =p had lots of fun too . we played audi tgt . smoked tgt . chat tgt . everything tgt . though i noe . u r not mine . u wun be mine . and mayb nvr ever ? i dunno ^^ it doesnt matter to me . all tt matters is u r happy . i really hope u take care . u noe hu r u princess =p hahas . be it hu u r with i dun mind . i will b at the back to support u . ^^
BRING BACK STORY TO 2dae .
suddenly BERRY(miao yin) smsed me o.o lols . mayb she broke lurhs or wad ? dunno x.x i felt shocked . hahas . i woke up saw her sms and almost went out wit her . but she told me she was broke left $10 and had to settle her cute lil brother too . so in the end didnt go out .
ABOUT PRINCESS ~
she's cute . unique in her own way . and of cos special in the way she does things =p i wun elaborate more . but . i jus wanna led her noe . she really is loved by me ^^ hahas . mayb u wun love me but i dun mind . u cant stop me from loving u and caring for u . sorrie for not giving u a gd bye hug on tt day . found out u love donuts hahas . though of buying but dunno when and where to gif u . so sians .. hope can see u soon but i tink hard bahs . school starting and u r always busy . wonder wad u do in ur free time . really wanna understand u more but not given a chance . mayb is jus fate bahs . even the private server maple u lost the webby . i tink we r not meant to be . hahas i really dunno . but i really wanna take care of u as a fren also can ^^ i really dun mind anything . a month a sms to tell me u r safe is ok =p i still accept it ^^ hahas . wad matters is u r happy and u r safe and sound . take cares !
ABOUT DAWN ~ (ex)
mayb i cheated ur feelings or wad . if tt's the way u tink . i really dunno . u got minghao as ur gd fren =p shuqiang as ur best buddy . so y worry nobody pei u hahas . if u ever see tis post . pls dun be so childish anymore . grow up lurhs . losing a guy is not anything much . especially a lousy guy lyk me . so pls . dun hurt urself or anything for a worthless guy lyk me ^^ take cares !
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tis is really a fun day but i didnt enjoy myself much cos princess wasnt dere . hais ..
tt's it for 2dae . will cont tmr when i wake up
SWEET DREAMS AND NIGHTS READERS ! <3
wad a long post uhs ><

early morning ._.

2008-06-21T11:44:00.000+08:00

woke up early today ... 8+ ._. lols . schl starting lurhs !! HW HW HW ?!?! all mus go schl soon lurhs . 2dae miao yin suddenly sms me lols . tink she broke up agains ._. always the spare tyre me =p

hmms .. nw 11.45 ! goin out to katong play pool soon =p milo bro joining . my brother , desmond and brian goin along . hmms hope it will be fun !
kk . nw go out lurhs . stop blogging here =p

TAKE CARE READERS <3

replies of tags!

2008-06-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

Afking in dota now ! zzz cb . keep afk make me cant farm den i lazy play . wanted eat but not my food =.= wait for parents buy back zz . left 1 stick ! TT
REPLIES OF TAG !
xMEElo : thx bro ! u also got 1 long ago . so late grats =x lmaos
Jillene : u bo gif mi link den u ask me link u =.= lols !
Nigel : thx . cya in schl on monday =p grats for being the 5th person? LOLS

1st day of my blog ! =x

2008-06-20T19:59:00.001+08:00

many thx to wawa/kolyn ~ for helping me make my blog uhs =p thx shagua
milo bro ! i got a blog lurhs ~ thx to tt fker ash ! =x say u got 1 blog he got 1 blog i hw can dun haf =.= nb ! ASH I GOT A BLOG LURHS =x
nth much happen today . i have been rotting at home b4 milo went to schl ! and after he came back =x nid make more frens for more links =x hahas ! tt's all for nw bahs !

TAKE CARE READERS ! <3s