tmr is my N lvls oral ... wit tis kinda mood . may i noe hw to do hais ...i keep smiling but isit my true self? i feel not kinda left out . however i feel kinda non-existence . hais . is my teacher sure i can get 34/40 ?hais ... no one except u can make me haf the mood . dun ask hu .i kinda gif up on studying . none of ur promises came true . study b4 prelims ? doubt is gonna happen . u jus got a bf b4 prelims .guess he shall pei u bahs . u said celebrate my bday .however on a later date ? can my bday be moved ?? lols ...u said u gonna celebrate xmas eve wit me . i wonder will it come true .i haf many wonders . but not a single wonderful thing .tt's the diff of wonders and wonderful .a person can do many wonders . and can wonder many thing .but tis doesnt mean something wonderful is happening .i am really veri stressed up . fking fking stressed . led me tell u 1 more thing ? i trained my pool skills to match urs .nw yes i am good . mayb not so good yet . i still training .but does it matter nw ? i dun get to play wit u lurhs .the last time i played wit u was on the 24/12/2007 .it was last yr ! hais ... u noe hw long lurhs ?? already 7 months liaos ...tt's hw fast time pass . tt's almost hw long i waited . u noe it .u can feel it i guess . actually i dunno y i saying tis . when i noe we wun stead . hahas ... led it be . my life is as fked up as it is .leds cont to fk it upside down . topsy turvy and inside out .wad a lame life . if the quiz ask me whether i haf a life i would lyk to say no .hais . many qns many doubts . u sure u gonna clear it for me ? r u even gonna clear it ? or do u even noe whether u can clear it ?i am gd for nth . in p4l . they call me the brains . in my life . they call me advisor .in fantasy . they call me silent . in reality . i am jus nth ^^i noe i cant do anything . so jus led me say wad i feel . many times . ppl say .i dun tell wad i feel . but when i tell . ppl cry . when i tell . ppl say i veri emo .hahas . tis is my life . a lifeless life . i really dun get anything i am doin .am i tt dumb ? mayb i am . or is it u r jus too smart for me .i lost many frens . lost many loved ones . left a few . they r veri close to me .but so wad ? mayb u do appreciate it . but u cant accept it . i aint the looks .nor the brain . nor anything to fit into ur lifestyle . hope u tell me when u feeling sad or smth . and nobody is dere to pei u .i would jus lyk to be ur spare tyre . a life bouy . a listening ear .a leaning shoulder . or a tear to share wit u ur sorrow and a smile to share ur happiness .anytime i will be here for u . many times . i say rubbish . i gif bullshit advice .ppl listen . cos lady luck shines on me . its spot on . but i not the facts . is jus coincidence .so dun worry ppl . at times if u find me a nuisance . shut me up in the face .i appreciate it . and i would lyk u ppl to do tt . hais ... cares ~Labels: wun ever gif up . fked up life .
